Last week in my hometown JC

I have loved living here in jersey city. I still remember the first day  i came to visit my mother it was Christmas 1996 and I had just turned 10 I was living with my father in Washington, D.C. In the fifth grade at bancroft elementary school  at the time. I have loved being here cause it changed my perspective on everything. I learned the value of self respect, self worth, loyalty from friends, loved ones, and how to always follow your passion and dreams. One thing I love most was the conveniency and literally watching th neighborhood transform from a blank canvas full of promise to a metropolitan downtown area full of cool places to meet people in a rich mixed used community. Our neighborhood is very busy constantly rapidly changing just as fast as life goes too. So to witness and experience that is a blessing in itself.
I am pretty nervous but I am also excited too because I know where we are moving too is a big difference in neighborhood but does not lack in diversity. I will be in another popular city location but this time does feel different everything does like I am on my way to a new path ahead of me. It is odd but funny how some things work out in a weird way. Okay here me out I always wanted to live in new york. One cause I love the atmosphere and I have grown up there too. Yet I thought my life really would not have began there until I had a full 9 to 5 and like 5 to 6 figures in my pocket too. But with the unpredictable way life truly is and what the universe hands you is a blessing in its own way too. So my life will be in new york and things are working out in some odd way and we will see what God, the universe, my inner circle, and me of course have in store for the future and our life in new york. its just mom and I our little duo aso we will see what our lives will be like ahead. I am remaining positive but it is bittersweet too. I will miss you JC (Jersey City) thanks for all the memories

The introduction of TDH

I am realizing a lot of things that keep me wondering who I really am and if the man I want to be with can handle all of these things about me.  Let us call himTDH (Tall Dark and Handsome). He comes in the room and I am filled with joy right away and its like the sunshines brightly blue skies clear no clouds in sight and all the birds chirp singing. He makes my world better he adds the peace love and harmony to honey brown sugars world. he makes me feel like we would be greatness together as one. I feel like everything is better with him in it. Now I am not kind of woman who needs completion from a man I am too independent for that.I would simply like for him and I just to have our worlds collide and build together. He and I have a lot in common and I adore so much about him. One thing he should be aware of is  I am very self-reliant and have learned how to trust my instincts. Yet there has not been a lot of real genuine love when it comes to matters of my heart. I feel real potential one day for TDH and me. am not settling at all. I am also not going to consume myself with one person but when am right about a person I just know this person and I have the potential to grow together into a powerful unit. I believe in him all ready and I have no doubt we will be develop into amazing friends....we shall see

Silly Girl

1930s actress and sex symbol Mae West glamour shot

<><><>We all go through little moments where before the real thing comes along you have to go through a lot to get there first. I believe I am half way there...and I'll be able to get to the right person.--Honey Brown Sugar

Dating should be less about matching outward circumstances than meeting your inner necessity.”

      “The best way to find your perfect match is to meet love halfway.”

“Don't cry for a man who's left you, the next one may fall for your smile.”--Mae West

She knew how to get them even if it was just a movie...I love how she felt about getting the attention of men she took it with a grain of salt...but never over did it...she had a lot of skills when it comes to men. That's why I love her =)

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe

I am sitting here and I know sometimes the voices we tend to ignore when people talk to us  usually are right.This pertains to a young man in my life
I knew in my heart that one day I would see this person.
I had dreamed of them for years but I went on with my life too.

I constantly wondered could he and I reunite
Well we did and it took the power of social media and technology to do that.
So he finally found me...
Sure it was adorable and even sweet.
Of course when you are a person who is looking for real,pure, genuine love in your life.
You have a tendency to be open to all possibilities.

I didn't want to shut myself off completely especially when yeah I had my heartbroken too.
I never wanted to actually cut myself off from the world. Or from people
I knew the best thing to do was focus on my goal, my dream, and what I need to do to get there. Which is extreme hard work, drive, focus, and you have to pay attention to everything around you. Even what is happening at the moment. Cause in my line of business...media...you have to know what's going on at all times. Past and present...and ready to discover a lot even about yourself too. So when it comes to my dreams I take it seriously and my love life even more too. I am not saying that's everything but I deserve my own life just as any other young adult.

I am also human too...distractions come along, you see all the romantic comedies, you see all of your friends and family. Then I even realize I haven't had this real person in my heart genuine, real, no hidden agendas, no craziness,  no disrespect (or maybe there was passive-aggressively) a person with real honesty.

It's hard to find that....yet at the same time people find it everyday. Am I being just a silly girl?
I am not one to ever be that way.
I take love and life seriously. I am giving and try my best to give what I have....yet I don't want to be a silly woman...I want to be taken seriously I have all ready proven myself as an adult.

Now I need the man who's right for me to prove himself that he is worthy, he will cherish, and respect me.
I have worked hard to get where I am at..I really have and just being looked at as a silly girl....that's unfair and unbelievable too.  Cause I can be silly when its time but I am serious about my life.
I am serious about what I want to...and that should never be taken lightly ever.  I have to remember I am too smart to be silly no way....I cannot ever forget that. Too much is at stake to be getting distracted to act that way. I am not a silly girl...I am a woman with a plan.