The New Yorker in Washington, D.C.

I am in Washington, D.C. yes I am in the Nation's Capital where all of everything political happens down here. I have some history with this town because I lived here about almost 21 years ago. Lol yeah I was four and a half when I came down here and I left when I was 10. So I have a lot of familiarity with this town but since a lot has happened to me....within that time frame. Things are different. I am in adult now in my mid-twenties.

It has changed everything about my perspective...I haven't lived here in years...so it is different cause I am used to being able to hop on a train in walking distance and just go. I am used to having some friends around me also. Which would help and comfort me too. So for me right now I am trying to figure out what is next...what does fate have in store for me now?

I just want to be able to have the life I have always wanted but its hard to do that when you're kind of the new kid on the block again. I know God and time will allow me to find my way again so I can pick back up where I left off at...so we will see. I just feel like on one hand yes I can come here to start over again but at the same time I am worried about what will happen next...does God have some divine plan in store? Or is this just another way for me to build my network and career. We will see. It has been two weeks since I arrived back here searching for a job. Now let's see if I can get a temp assignment, a broadcast job, or any other well paying job in the fall of this year. 

"Will Sparks Shine in Sparkle the movie"

"Sparkle" the movie made it's way into the homes of many  people in the 1970s. In 1976 the film starring Irene Cara made its way with its hit songs such as "Giving Him Something He Can Feel"  Now the movie is back this summer making its way to movie theaters this August 17th. I know so many generations of people are looking forward to the film because people of what it represents following your dreams. I am looking forward to it cause I have seen the original several times. Also because our angel, the now legend, who live on forever in her last film appearance, Whitney Houston is cast in one of the main lead roles along with comedian and actor Mike Epps, Cee-Lo Green, Carmen Ejogo ("Pride and Glory"), Tika Sumpter ("The Game"). 

She teamed up with sixth season American Idol winner, singer, and actress, Jordin Sparks who will share the screen along with Whitney. I am thrilled for Sparks and also excited to see her career going into a new direction now. 

Now that the film has a 2012 twist to it who knows which direction you can have the film go into because there is so much to work with now from past and present  but I am excited to see how this will all come together because it shares that same common theme as "Dreamgirls"..."Never ever give up on your dreams.  Cause you just might find that person who sees something in you. 

Also with this film its like Whitney's last love letter of her passion with music, producing, singing, and acting all coming to screen. This will a treat for us to see her on the screen again one last time showing why she was remarkable as a person, talent, business woman, and how she touched all of our lives with a gift to sing and light us all up.

I believe Sparkle will send the same message to a new generation of little girls and boys who have never seen the film before at all. Get your dancing shoes ready cause I believe there will be many people dancing in the movie theater aisles all day and night when this film comes to theaters on Friday, August 17th, 2012. 


Just saw Sparkle last night and the movie was incredible a lot more dramatic than the original, it has been updated and twisted to become more modern than it was in the 1970s so it is different but now they really do have a hit on their hands between the story line, the costumes, and of course the cast. Props to Mike Epps who did a really good job!!!! I have never seen him in a role where he gets to play the villain so to speak. So he took on a new role I also have never seen Whitney Houston as the tough and firm mom. So at least she took on a role that also shows her real acting chops, plus she sings which made some people weep in the audience. It was a beautiful film with some great lessons in it as well. I loved all of the songs and costumes of course. I would love a red Sparkle dress! 

A dream sparks questions....

I had a dream about a friend of mine who is close to me and who I broke up with too. I miss him and I realize it every single day. it’s like a piece of my heart is still with him even though he’s 200 miles away. I haven’t seen him…I haven’t spoken to him but I still feel a certain way that makes me want to see him I don’t know what to do cause now I am feeling like yes on one hand I would love to be with someone but I need to get my goals completed first.

I need everything to be complete first until I know this is it….this is where I belong…I belong with this person. I need to know if he is or not. I need God to send me a sign if he’s supposed to be with me. If not I will keep looking but I need you to tell me who’s the one…? How will I know he’s the one? Will something hit me?, will it come to me? Or do I continue on just focusing on my work and other goals…I am halfway there…I am almost there.

I hear songs that remind me of him….lol…it’s oh lord no why…why oh why…lol This isn’t supposed to be happening. Maybe I made a mistake.

Maybe I did something wrong…I guess going on that boat ride was probably a bad idea…I did it cause I knew deep down how I felt. I wanted to know the truth…was he the one…or not? I knew he wasn’t ready to commit but something tells me differently he feels a different way but he’s not ready to admit it yet.

I don’t know…everyone else who I think of from past to present…I guess I will just know right?

Not giving up the dream

I have been a bit side tracked but one thing I keep remembering don't ever forget the dream.....don't forget the life you have wanted for yourself. That is something I take seriously because I believe in dreams probably because I know they can come true but it's a matter of hard work, patience, motivation, and drive. How bad do you want something and are you willing to work for it in this life. In America, in my city in New York.

I know its not going to be easy but deep down i know I am almost there...I just need the job too so I will be able to get what I am looking for and get to the next chapter...30 is not too far away...but 26 is around the corner...times catching up to me and so are my dreams so now I need to remember how do I make this all a reality.

First college...back to get the master's next year...then we'll see...I am not sure what's next...I know I have to have everything together. I mean career I know what I want now. It took me a long time to know okay this is it....I want this...but now how to obtain it all. I just know I am not giving up now ever.