The Trayvon Martin case

I am sure many of you know what is going on with the Trayvon Martin case
It has been across mainstream media all month long and before this month ends and another month of blog posts come to you from me. I wanted to discuss my point of view. As a woman first it is hard to watch any woman lose her child, as a young person it touches your soul because he was so young and wll never have the chance to grow and continue his path making the his mark, living a normal American life, trying to find his dream, next as a black person I see the race card go up to the maximum. It is heavily involved here and everyone should involved. Next as an aspiring journalist/writer his story needs to be told because no teen should be shot. Stand your ground law or not it shouldn't take place. He unfortunately was caught in a bad situation wrong time, wrong place. I pray for justice for his family, that our judicial system will come up with a better law for that state. He wasn't a threat he was a minor walking the street minding his own business. I hope the story will have a better solution and people will have a way to make a victory happen.

Is it time to move forward...or just stick this out

I have been forgetting a lot of stuff... I guess cause I have moved on...I just realized a lot of these experiences I have been through dating or whatever else I did has prepared me for what I want in the future.
I am not going to lie...relationships, dating, and a lot more has been on my mind heavy. I keep thinking wow I am going to be twenty-six and I am approaching thirty soon. Jesus! lol I keep thinking about the fact I need my own place and car so badly. I am trying to focus on that...cause I need that first before continuing my journey. Sometimes being up here my little apartment gives me clarity to really think about my future, my choices,my mistakes, my flaws, my achievements, and where I am headed.
My career of course is important to me...however I realize I do want a family too. Not tomorrow but soon in a couple years...I think I am going to leave behind everything...the young party girl, the woman-child, and the mommy & daddy's preemie princess. I think I am going to leave it behind cause soon I would like to take my next journey. I feel like I have four empty roads infront of me with each road posting  one large destination green sign says "Planning for the future Family and Marriage", "Career as a Producer/Writer/Journalist", "Party Girl/Bachelorette", or "Going back for theMaster's Degree". I am not sure which path to take and which road to go to cause all four of them sound promising and bright. I will let God and the fates hold what is in store for me. The fact I live in New York now and will officially be a resident this year means all of the opportunities are possibilities. I have made my dreams come true now...how do I get back in the Life Path and decide which road to take now? There is so much I can do now but I am having trouble following my heart.

Break time

This break has been good for me I needed to clear my head a lot of things on my mind lately I need to deal with before going back into the workforce again. I have a lot on my mind right now mostly...trying to figure out how to keep up my lent promise of no fried foods, my resolution of exercising cause apparently I have gained rather than lost within the year. A combination of stress I believe and boredom too lol. So now I need to get my head back together....I almost lost it for a minute trying to figure out what is the cause of me gaining weight.
I realize I have been missing my family a lot too and I want to spend a lot of time with them this year when I get back on my feet and get some more cashflow.
What I mean is that I forget one of the things I have to work on my defensiveness....I work hard to make sure I take care of my body, my health, its hard for  me to deal with that I have always kind of been that way. I am a sensitive soul that's who I am. Yet I know I have gained strength. Never weak believe that!
I still miss my baby too...not seeing his face it makes me sad cause if he were here I would be happy and my heart would be full again. I guess I realize there are some things I still have to work on I do get defensive  only because I feel like I have done a lot to change my eating habits...more calcium, less junk, morevegetables, more seafood, and poultry...less fried food which I love and I am a big sucker for sweets so its hard. I have got a lot I am dealing with inside but I realize stay strong.
...you got it as long as you focus on where you see yourself you'll get there. So we will see....I will have to woman up I know I can do this....I can't let some of these things people say make me fall apart that's not cool.  I am still Honey Brown Sugar I can't forget that I have to remain strong and focused on my goals, being better, I have been forgetting that. 2012 can still be a fabulous year.

To trust or not to trust

There is something bugging me...my mind is like messing with me. I am just going to be real about it no sugar coating. I am still dating handsomeness and I believe he is out of town cause he's not responding to my texts and I am kind off worried. In our business of media there are so many people attractive people who you deal with and the people who you interact with are attractive physically and have big personalities to match too. Why do I care? because honestly I am in love with this man and I hate seeing or even imagining him with another female intimately. The image bugs me a bit but I know deep down handsomeness needs a break. We both do...but I will take mine later. As far as him he deserves it my poor baby had a rough time and a lot to deal with actually. So for me its understandable but I still care for this man....I can easily be like forget it..forget him but its not that simple . Handsomeness has my heart and he's like a best friend too so for me I am at a loss. I don't want to be ever cause I am smart enough to know better. I am aware of a lot of things far more than people probably could imagine. Yet at the same time I know in my heart you have to be trustworthy until something comes up. Guilty until proven innocent right? I can't assume that but I want to be smart too. He means a lot to me and I don't want to think of another chick up in his face. If that is the case....let me just go on and move forward. I don't know its a little rough I have a a lot to think about I don't want to imagine it. He knows the deal with me and where I stand...I am not dating anyone else. If I did I would   let him know immediately. I am going to wait until I see my baby's face. All will be revealed in time. Goodnight my beloved readers. xoxo <3 HBS

New plans for the future

I have decided that this fall I believe I will go back to school. I have been hearing so much about it and something clicked to me the other day when I was out.  I have been planning this since I came back to new york.
It's now or never right this is the best time for me to do this before my life begins to go through another big transition again. 
Moving from Jersey City to New York really was not as simple as it sounds. Imagine having to almost rewire your brain into what you have been accustomed to for the past fifteen years. 
It was not hard at all but just a lot to soak in and take in actually. 


The move did not just affect me and my world...it affected everything from the family, to even the dynamic of how we are and everything around me has changed. One thing that keeps me grounded and sane is knowing I am here for a reason.
I know in my heart and truly believe this happened for a bigger reason than me. God has a genius plan in mind I believe. He works his magic every day and I know he has something big up his sleeve for me. I feel very blessed actually because I know now I can really start doing the very thing I have been wanting to do for so long. I can complete my books now. I can start my book and I will be able to do exactly what I want now. Who knew it would take so long though. 
I believe now if I get this degree now and take the advice some people have told me as opposed to me just waiting. I can wait and wait but where would that get me?
No where...so now I realize it's time to go on and finish my tasks. The rest will fall into place and I will see my dream come to life now. 
Books, movies, television series, I have got so many dreams in my head I know I will have a lot to do to get there. Now I need to make a plan and put it to fruition.
There's a part of me that has a passion towards business, then towards entertainment, then other fields. Business I think has been in my blood, my mother actually inherited a business sense from her father and I didn't even realize I had it until I was child actually. Along with me wanting to be a singer. I wanted to own a cosmetic line called "Fruit of the Beauty"... where I used all natural products and people would only use everything the way mother nature provided. There would be no chemicals. Next came the dream of a restaurant. This passion is engrained in me because I love food, I am creative, and I know I have people who would believe in my dream. This restaurant means the most to me because this will be all family recipes..."Red Renee's Cafe" is a big passion for me. I believe if I can focus on that it will be great for me to have as something to fall back on too. 
Only thing is I need my master's degree first....once I get that. A real estate license I can do the rest. I can build everything else on my own.
I would need a team of people to help me too.

cheap vacations

I need a vacation to a place far away...I really do I haven't been out of the country since 2005, I haven't been to a new place like Vegas since 2009, I haven't been to Martha's Vineyard since 2006, and I haven't been on a cruise since 2000, I also haven't been to Disneyland since I was a toddler...I haven't been down the shore since 2008. I haven't been to Miami in 13 years lol So do you see a pattern here...I haven't had a really good vacation with fun,excitement, and adventures in a while. My trip to lorida wasn't really for pleasure that was for family. So this year for 2012 I promise myself a trip I need one so bad.
After moving, working, and everything else that has happened its time for a break I am going to treat myself to a trip. That or a huge lobster tail, a giant steak, and a dozen cupcakes (after Lent) lol. I just want enjoy life again so much happened so I really want to get back there.
I hate not being able to do what I really want to in my heart that's torture.
I guess I just want a break from nyc somewhere to clear my head. So God please find me a cheap vacation somewhere fast.

Springtime in New York

We have been having a heat wave to quote one of my favorite Hollywood actresses, Marylin Monroe. LOL...It was so beautiful today sometimes I forget there is so much to do in this city I still haven't done actually. We are going on seven months living in new york. Everything is finally falling into place almost done with the unpacking of boxes.
Today I saw one of my best friends I call her Macaroni and I am Cheese cause we just stick together no matter what life throws our way. I still have not done a lot of things I have wanted to but I believe it will happen soon. I am trying so hard to get an opportunity that will sustain me and I will be able to have an apartment of my own...part of me doesn't want to move again just the thought of moving again makes my head spin. If I move I hope it will be to an apartment of my own in new york. I don't want to leave just yet we are just getting settled again.
I know there's so much out there I want to do I have gotta get everything settled first and I believe everything will fall into place. Every day here is a journey. I know my new neighborhood isn't perfect but I do see potential, I see so much here that I think I can change or be of help in a way too. So this spring in new york is making me feel a real new birth within.

Dresscodes in your workplace

All right this has been on my mind because everyone deals with this everyday in the workplace. The other day I was at my office and I just so happened yo be wearing jeans and a silk brown shirt. Little did I know that outfit would affect my day at work even though I was there for only 1 hour. I was walking around until a woman stopped me and when she did she said "Miss do you work here?" LYes, I do for a year" I quickly responded and then she told me "Just so you know you're not supposed to wear jeans"....boy was I surprised. I couldn't believe it cause I have waltzed in there several times with jeans and casual wear on...but this day was different. My broadcast team even laughed and giggled at me. What I wasn't aware of was there was a meeting that morning for our magazine about a new dresscode:strictly office attire, professional wear, no jeans at all...during all five days of the week. Which shocked me because some companies are very lenient but no its business attire and its back to  basics again and finding more business clothes. I couldn't believe it. So my response is this...Do you believe employees have a right to casual fridays or should proper attire be worn all the time? You tell me...not everyone is going to eel fabulous about that especially if u love clothes and fashion like me and other females.

Getting caught up in your life

sometimes when it comes to your busy life no matter what you re doing professionally and personally. You get caught up in what is important for me it has been my family, friends, my goals....but lately its been a lot of other things mostly cause I am older now. I am not how I was a few years ago...I am a lot more focused on what makes me happy, how I am feeling physically or emotionally. Also what is going to get me to my goal....I am there all ready now I need to break down walls and doors inside of me and open up. I am trying to get to my goal and also accomplish what I want for the future too. I want to do aweb show version of my blog...sort of like reality tv with real for real life.

I am on my fourth year with my blog so time to evolve and  make something happen. Truth is I never told anyone I always wanted my own business where I had my magazine, produced films, and also managed music artists lol....business is in my genes literally. No lie but it is...I have so much I want to do s a journalist too....writing stories, doing interviews. I have forgotten about hat for a while. Now I need to figure out how to expand myself even more. Also how to get back to my roots too. I know family is important....that has been on my mind heavy. I am not getting any younger. I am getting older and I am realizing that I have a lot I want to do. I have gotta remember what my parents tught me..."Loyalty, Family First, Support, Love, Forgiveness, The Golden Rule: d unto others as you want done to you. Also making this dream real. It's almost there. I never forget that I don't know where my head has been I guess caught up on work and trying to get to the goal. I believe its going to happen soon. My family is counting on me. My mom especially and my pops. Also my extended family and me too. I am gonna get there I promise that to myself and them. I have gotta step it up now. I know I can do this....look what I accomplished with my family and friends behind me in one year ? From 2010-since graduated its been alot of changes...now its time to get focused again. 

What about your friends?

Something has been on my mind lately...I kind of realize that when I always had my girls around me I felt so much love, confidence, reassurance that everything would be okay. We would always be there for each other and also things would work out the way we thought. Well it but not the way I thought....also I always believed everything would work out in a certain way. Now I feel like what to do? we have been living here 7 months and I feel like wow...I haven't really gone out wth my girlfriends. I miss the camraderie the closeness, being able to bond, release my real true feelings too. I feel like now do I forget the past, just try to build a new foundation, or how can I combine my old life with my new life in new york? I am confused on this really cause I feel like I have lost a piece of my heart. It is weird like I am healthy, yes I am happy but I have this piece of my heart missing too. I think Honey Brown Sugar has gotta kick things up, step out of her comfort zone, and take who she wants to be as a woman up to the next level. What I mean is stepping out and doing things I don't normally do. I guess I realize I miss my girls. That's all.