This break has been good for me I needed to clear my head a lot of things on my mind lately I need to deal with before going back into the workforce again. I have a lot on my mind right now mostly...trying to figure out how to keep up my lent promise of no fried foods, my resolution of exercising cause apparently I have gained rather than lost within the year. A combination of stress I believe and boredom too lol. So now I need to get my head back together....I almost lost it for a minute trying to figure out what is the cause of me gaining weight.
I realize I have been missing my family a lot too and I want to spend a lot of time with them this year when I get back on my feet and get some more cashflow.
What I mean is that I forget one of the things I have to work on my defensiveness....I work hard to make sure I take care of my body, my health, its hard for me to deal with that I have always kind of been that way. I am a sensitive soul that's who I am. Yet I know I have gained strength. Never weak believe that!
I still miss my baby too...not seeing his face it makes me sad cause if he were here I would be happy and my heart would be full again. I guess I realize there are some things I still have to work on I do get defensive only because I feel like I have done a lot to change my eating habits...more calcium, less junk, morevegetables, more seafood, and poultry...less fried food which I love and I am a big sucker for sweets so its hard. I have got a lot I am dealing with inside but I realize stay strong.
...you got it as long as you focus on where you see yourself you'll get there. So we will see....I will have to woman up I know I can do this....I can't let some of these things people say make me fall apart that's not cool. I am still Honey Brown Sugar I can't forget that I have to remain strong and focused on my goals, being better, I have been forgetting that. 2012 can still be a fabulous year.
I realize I have been missing my family a lot too and I want to spend a lot of time with them this year when I get back on my feet and get some more cashflow.
What I mean is that I forget one of the things I have to work on my defensiveness....I work hard to make sure I take care of my body, my health, its hard for me to deal with that I have always kind of been that way. I am a sensitive soul that's who I am. Yet I know I have gained strength. Never weak believe that!
I still miss my baby too...not seeing his face it makes me sad cause if he were here I would be happy and my heart would be full again. I guess I realize there are some things I still have to work on I do get defensive only because I feel like I have done a lot to change my eating habits...more calcium, less junk, morevegetables, more seafood, and poultry...less fried food which I love and I am a big sucker for sweets so its hard. I have got a lot I am dealing with inside but I realize stay strong.
...you got it as long as you focus on where you see yourself you'll get there. So we will see....I will have to woman up I know I can do this....I can't let some of these things people say make me fall apart that's not cool. I am still Honey Brown Sugar I can't forget that I have to remain strong and focused on my goals, being better, I have been forgetting that. 2012 can still be a fabulous year.
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