"How Dare You Judge Me"

Ladies and Gentlemen my dear readers I have been going through it this year seriously. I am 3 months away from turning 30 guys and I can tell you do I feel my age….YES!!! I have been through a lot this year some great experiences that have taught me beautiful lessons. I have come into my own and I am learning to “fight fire with fire” now as some people say. My current boyfriend and I were having some problems and I always tried to keep in open mind too about dating other people too. I met a few people this year some I can kind of decipher and know that these men were clearly not going to be Mr. Right Now. Some had potential at one point I became so close actually to meeting someone who was damn near perfect. I met a guy at my old job I used to work part-time and evenings for the well- known furniture discount store Bob’s Discount Furniture. You all have seen the commercials with the little man running around in the bright yellow t-shirt he has brown hair and talks to the real-life Bob. Well earlier this year back in February I met a guy who came into the store. He was one of my customers actually and he came in to order new furniture for his new apartment he just moved into New York. He lives in Harlem and so we had to assist him right away. The funny thing is when I first saw him he was one of the most handsome men I actually seen in person. I couldn’t believe my eyes actually and I couldn’t concentrate when I met him. He was so handsome it through me off from focusing at that time. My co-worker, Zacha had to literally stop me and so

 

 

did the other ladies were drooling when they saw him too.

“Chloe, focus here let me help you” I remember she told me. We completed his order and of course everything worked out. I always wanted to go out with him. At the time I was dating “Theo” and I couldn’t because I know how these days guys have consider women not to be loyal or faithful. So I chose not to concentrate just to ignore him. Now about 3 months later…..I ran into him. I am looking for a new place to move to and I have just been looking at some potential ideas. Just looking all around and on this beautiful windy, rainy day I took a bus over to the west side in Harlem to go look at apartments. I ran into the handsome guy again out walking his dog. I said “Hey do you know where this apartment is I am looking to go to an open house”. So he told me where to go and his dog jumped on me. She was so sweet and friendly. So as I walked away I couldn’t stop thinking about him. We exchanged e-mail addresses or rather I took it. I went on to go look for places and I thought about him for a while. I knew in my heart and mind I had to move forward. I had to see where things would go with me and this other person. I didn’t want to lose him to someone else not that way. It’s like let things run its course. Now one advantage I had was because my boyfriend and I are in a long-distance relationship it worked for us because he has family here and he was going to move here too. So I wanted things to kind of just fizzle out first not just jump into anything. A part of me couldn’t help it though…I reached out to “The Handsome Customer” and he responded saying “Hey Beautiful…I hope I am not being to forward I wanted to take you out…”. I tell you I was dancing and skipping like I was on soul train or a music video lol!!! Yes I was happy but then I thought about my boyfriend I had to talk to my girlfriends about it too. I was worried and I just didn’t want to involve myself yet.  So I rejected him unfortunately…I cancelled twice I think out of fear because I didn’t want to cheat either. I didn’t do it. He was hurt but I didn’t realize it until a couple days ago

So a few months later passed since May and we are in August now I reached out to him and I know this looks bad…he was so mad at me when I reached out to him. Now there’s one funny part to this story I was watching the Tony awards one night and didn’t realize that the Handsome Customer has a brother who’s a broadway actor. He received an award and I didn’t realize it was him. Now I reached out and I thought it was just funny. I didn’t want anything from him at all. I have been to concerts, broadway shows, ballets, operas, and more. I don’t want anything but to get to know you.

 He called me the ultimate diss….”A Gold digger, Pathetic, Two-Faced, Evil, Conniving, Manipulative,  I don’t want to know you, date, you or anything.”   I was broked- hearted and felt like someone punched me in the stomach. I know words can hurt…as a wordsmith and writer I know how to cut with words trust me. I told him how I work 2 jobs even more and I have a bachelor’s degree. How dare you insult me and I told him how dare you judge me. I told him I can’t believe someone like you would be so hurtful and demeaning. I told him you never have to speak to me again. I realized you know what he was hurt. I have been called names plenty of times but nothing that demeaning. So for me it’s clear I think just for a little while I need some time for me to reflect just for a minute. Clear my head and focus on my other goals and projects. I am not saying love won’t happen but I just know I need more time. 

 I just couldn't believe the fact he said it to me but I have realized between him and my now new ex-beau. I have to really figure out and find the man who would be there even with small things. I will give you an example if I had no food at all would you come and assist me if I needed something. Or would you be there I am not saying doling out money (I don't need it) I mean support, compassion, sympathy. I know who would be there in hard times and who wouldn't. I just know that at times people may need you to know that you need them too. But I think even when we do that and there's no response at all. You have to move forward and find new people. So here's to the future...to finding some genuine real men who will step up. I dedicate this song,"Don't Judge Me" by C.Breezy (Chris Brown) to this guy...lol. Cause darling you don't know me and don't judge me ever. 

I don't want to post pictures of the man yet who was so rude because you never know things may change. Lol....so we'll keep him anonymous.
Update we never spoke again but happy to know his famous brother is doing so very well. =) As for Theo he lives in New York now and moved here this fall 2016 in September. So stay tuned my readers.