So Complex

Why is this so compliated matters of the heart versus morals and ethics? I am in a situation where many women and men find themselves. Yet mine is very unique and different too cause it has many twists also. I am in the beginning stage of my career in media. I am at the stage of finding place in this business and I am enjoying it a lot because I believe I am going to fulfill my destiny and dream very soon. I just need more faith in me and the right tools to continue to get me there. I have a sincere feeling God's plan is about to come to fruition for me very soon. Time is rolling so fast and I am trying to catch up with all that needs to be done before my next chapter begins a new page. This a new chapter moving to new york is a new chapter. Also coming into my mid twenties is kind of a defining moment too. Now I have to step up even more as an adult. I am not feeling fulfilled yet I can do so much more. I am not going to feel fulfilled until everything is done. That is how I am all my goals have to be accomplished until I feel full. I feel emptiness for some reason. I can laugh and smile but I still don't feel complete yet.

On top of that...there is the person in my life I want to know so badly yet people believe I am crossing the line by dating someone in my industry of work. I feel like they should back off and let me handle this I know what I am doing and what risks are involved and the repercussions. I need this person in my corner cause I am joyful and at peace. I feel like he is just going to add so much more to my life if he were in my circle. I don't know what to do yet I need time to prove it all to me that I am not just imagining this but these feelings are real and I need him or if he should not be in my heart and head how do ignore him and move on? If I do the next guy will have to prove himself. Everything is too complex