I thought about it long and hard...I cried and sobbed. Going over everything in my head. I looked at all my actions....all of my behavior. I realized I should back out...I am never going to do online dating, no more people hooking me up, I am going to move on. I am ready to move on....I am tired.
I don't want anyone involved at all....I am just going to move on and find someone new. I realize I can't deal with a man who doesn't want what I want either. I am going to be real with myself. I am 25 not twelve I am grown with a future to consider I can never wait around for anyone. I will never do that. It's not fair to me.
So when I have a moment...with handsomeness. I am going to tell him good-bye.
I also realize I have been denying myself a lot of things.
I am going to keep looking for a new job, a school I want to go to and just move forward. There are 8.2 million people in nyc and close to 7 billion on the planet I am bound to find love somewhere else. So I am closing the chapter soon.
I don't want anyone involved at all....I am just going to move on and find someone new. I realize I can't deal with a man who doesn't want what I want either. I am going to be real with myself. I am 25 not twelve I am grown with a future to consider I can never wait around for anyone. I will never do that. It's not fair to me.
So when I have a moment...with handsomeness. I am going to tell him good-bye.
I also realize I have been denying myself a lot of things.
I am going to keep looking for a new job, a school I want to go to and just move forward. There are 8.2 million people in nyc and close to 7 billion on the planet I am bound to find love somewhere else. So I am closing the chapter soon.
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