How one moment can change your heart

I worked vigorously hard to put this man out of my mind. I kept myself busy I worked hard on and still keep my life pretty busy now. Yet this man I will call him Soul Songbyrd. Soul Songbyrd and I have known one another a long period of time since Honey Brown Sugar was a young little girl. Soul Songbyrd was Honey's first real crush. Yet they could never be together cause of their age difference. Years went by time passed she changed went on her with her life and so did he. They saw each other again and she remembered him as  a teenager falling in love with his smile, his laugh, and his puppy dog chinky dark brown eyes. She knew one day he and herself had to share their lives together. Yet Soul Songbyrd had a woman he was in love with and adored. Honey Brown Sugar continued to grow and learn experiencing and enjoying her life. Eventually they crossed paths and went out together. She was grown and ready to know him. They went out and shared some moments but honey knew she had to let him go and move forward. She did and she met many interesting men along the way no one who stole her heart like him. Now Honey is in love with Handsomeness. Handsomeness is important to her and she believes she can really learn grow with him. Yet one minor detail...because Honey lives in the same city as Soul Songbyrd and now she has seen him crossing paths. Now her feelings are open....she wants to know him but honey is afraid her heart may get broken again....what to do....she's lost and needs to get back to lookin for someone new. Or perhaps someone may all ready be right for her.
Stay tuned....always a new chapter in the world of Honey Brown Sugar
Okay now Handsomeness has decided to go back to his Queen. Honey Brown Sigar was devastated by the news when she received a text message this morning. However, she knows love will come to her when she finds someone new. She cannot let that trump her or stop how she feels. Her life is too important and she has too much to do to let that mess her up. It hurts her heart a lot because she had such high hopes. But she knows there is another plan God has in mind and there will be a new person. There is too much going on in her world to let that crush her heart. Maybe there might be hope for her Soul Songbyrd? Or maybe a new king will be here soon too. You see how one moment can change everything in life its unbelievable at times.

I got the best of both worlds

Last month before I moved to New York I was stressed out worried about a new life there when suddenly I realized I have lived my life here just as much as I did in jersey city. It hit me when I was in church today that God does have divine plan for me. As much as my life has changed this year it is true.I  get the best of both worlds. I get a chance to really live here and I do believe my life is getting ready to change. There's a person inside me always wanted to be tougher, stronger, wiser, and more accepting of my flaws and everything about who I am too. One thing about being in new york and to be here now and really be living my life here makes me see I  have a chance to reinvent myself now. I have a shot to make the life I want and dream come to life now. I am on my way.....stay tuned. I feel really good about the path I have chosen I feel a sense of peace and joy now. I can get used to this now and I am going to put my best foot forward this chapter of my life is special.

I got the best of both worlds

Last month before I moved to New York I was stressed out worried about a new life there when suddenly I realized I have lived my life here just as much as I did in jersey city. It hit me when I was in church today that God does have divine plan for me. As much as my life has changed this year it is true. get the best of both worlds. I get a chance to really live here and I do believe my life is getting ready to change. There's a person inside me always wanted to be tougher, stronger, wiser, and more accepting of me and everything about me. to be here now and really be living my life here makes me see have a chance to reinvent myself now. I have a shot to make the life I want and dream come to life now. I am on my way.....stay tuned

Deep Inside the world of Honey Brown Sugar

I have a lot going on inside my little world actually. I have recently moved to new york. A place I adore and love but I am dealing with a lot this year. It is time for me to be honest about some things. I have an internship I am doing that is my dream job and while I am working and doing something close to my area of interest. I am dealing with personal things that are almost eating away from me. One its almost like a soap opera or a sitcom for the people I work with and what I have to intake sometimes. I walked into my internship with nervousness and high apprehension. I knew this is where I belong. Now months  have gone by and I have gotten to know people I feel like now I have walked into a really complicated situation. I am meeting people who I thought I would build long friendships with but now I am really getting lost. I am stuck with frustration some days and I am supposed to be joyful. Money is still tight and I am supposed to be moving toward the future gettng my own place, a car and building my life too. I am starting to feel lost. I have got a lot going on bugging me. I thought I had everything figured out but now my inner circle is making me realize I still have so much inside of me I still need to work on now. 6 months ago I was happy now I am questioning everything.
Even the man I thought I was in love with and I am I cannot let him go cause we have not been out properly but the truth is I am crazy about him and its complicated cause we work around one another. I am at a lost now and I need to move forward. I need to get back to my goals they always keep me focused they become apart of me because they are changing me inside and outside too literally.
I believe this year for my twenty fifth birthday the biggest gift I can give myself is a chance to find my happiness and the life I want too. Also a vacation I need to get in touch within inside of me mentally ad emotionally again cause I still have a lot to build on again. I still have a lot to work on in some relationships of mine too. I also know soon I need to get back to my spiritual side, exercising again, and just rebuilding myself. One thing about my zodiac sign and this is just something I have always loved we as Scorpios are driven, we can get  side tracked in our lives, but that is just our way of transforming ourselves. we are passionate people about everything and we are loyal. I am loyal by nature. I also love to transform myself cause I am able to dig within and be a better Chloe. I am looking forward to that part of my journey. There is a lot ahead of me and I know very soon I am going to gain my strength back and I will be a better me.

Last week in my hometown JC

I have loved living here in jersey city. I still remember the first day  i came to visit my mother it was Christmas 1996 and I had just turned 10 I was living with my father in Washington, D.C. In the fifth grade at bancroft elementary school  at the time. I have loved being here cause it changed my perspective on everything. I learned the value of self respect, self worth, loyalty from friends, loved ones, and how to always follow your passion and dreams. One thing I love most was the conveniency and literally watching th neighborhood transform from a blank canvas full of promise to a metropolitan downtown area full of cool places to meet people in a rich mixed used community. Our neighborhood is very busy constantly rapidly changing just as fast as life goes too. So to witness and experience that is a blessing in itself.
I am pretty nervous but I am also excited too because I know where we are moving too is a big difference in neighborhood but does not lack in diversity. I will be in another popular city location but this time does feel different everything does like I am on my way to a new path ahead of me. It is odd but funny how some things work out in a weird way. Okay here me out I always wanted to live in new york. One cause I love the atmosphere and I have grown up there too. Yet I thought my life really would not have began there until I had a full 9 to 5 and like 5 to 6 figures in my pocket too. But with the unpredictable way life truly is and what the universe hands you is a blessing in its own way too. So my life will be in new york and things are working out in some odd way and we will see what God, the universe, my inner circle, and me of course have in store for the future and our life in new york. its just mom and I our little duo aso we will see what our lives will be like ahead. I am remaining positive but it is bittersweet too. I will miss you JC (Jersey City) thanks for all the memories

The introduction of TDH

I am realizing a lot of things that keep me wondering who I really am and if the man I want to be with can handle all of these things about me.  Let us call himTDH (Tall Dark and Handsome). He comes in the room and I am filled with joy right away and its like the sunshines brightly blue skies clear no clouds in sight and all the birds chirp singing. He makes my world better he adds the peace love and harmony to honey brown sugars world. he makes me feel like we would be greatness together as one. I feel like everything is better with him in it. Now I am not kind of woman who needs completion from a man I am too independent for that.I would simply like for him and I just to have our worlds collide and build together. He and I have a lot in common and I adore so much about him. One thing he should be aware of is  I am very self-reliant and have learned how to trust my instincts. Yet there has not been a lot of real genuine love when it comes to matters of my heart. I feel real potential one day for TDH and me. am not settling at all. I am also not going to consume myself with one person but when am right about a person I just know this person and I have the potential to grow together into a powerful unit. I believe in him all ready and I have no doubt we will be develop into amazing friends....we shall see

Silly Girl

1930s actress and sex symbol Mae West glamour shot

<><><>We all go through little moments where before the real thing comes along you have to go through a lot to get there first. I believe I am half way there...and I'll be able to get to the right person.--Honey Brown Sugar

Dating should be less about matching outward circumstances than meeting your inner necessity.”

      “The best way to find your perfect match is to meet love halfway.”

“Don't cry for a man who's left you, the next one may fall for your smile.”--Mae West

She knew how to get them even if it was just a movie...I love how she felt about getting the attention of men she took it with a grain of salt...but never over did it...she had a lot of skills when it comes to men. That's why I love her =)

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe

I am sitting here and I know sometimes the voices we tend to ignore when people talk to us  usually are right.This pertains to a young man in my life
I knew in my heart that one day I would see this person.
I had dreamed of them for years but I went on with my life too.

I constantly wondered could he and I reunite
Well we did and it took the power of social media and technology to do that.
So he finally found me...
Sure it was adorable and even sweet.
Of course when you are a person who is looking for real,pure, genuine love in your life.
You have a tendency to be open to all possibilities.

I didn't want to shut myself off completely especially when yeah I had my heartbroken too.
I never wanted to actually cut myself off from the world. Or from people
I knew the best thing to do was focus on my goal, my dream, and what I need to do to get there. Which is extreme hard work, drive, focus, and you have to pay attention to everything around you. Even what is happening at the moment. Cause in my line of business...media...you have to know what's going on at all times. Past and present...and ready to discover a lot even about yourself too. So when it comes to my dreams I take it seriously and my love life even more too. I am not saying that's everything but I deserve my own life just as any other young adult.

I am also human too...distractions come along, you see all the romantic comedies, you see all of your friends and family. Then I even realize I haven't had this real person in my heart genuine, real, no hidden agendas, no craziness,  no disrespect (or maybe there was passive-aggressively) a person with real honesty.

It's hard to find that....yet at the same time people find it everyday. Am I being just a silly girl?
I am not one to ever be that way.
I take love and life seriously. I am giving and try my best to give what I have....yet I don't want to be a silly woman...I want to be taken seriously I have all ready proven myself as an adult.

Now I need the man who's right for me to prove himself that he is worthy, he will cherish, and respect me.
I have worked hard to get where I am at..I really have and just being looked at as a silly girl....that's unfair and unbelievable too.  Cause I can be silly when its time but I am serious about my life.
I am serious about what I want to...and that should never be taken lightly ever.  I have to remember I am too smart to be silly no way....I cannot ever forget that. Too much is at stake to be getting distracted to act that way. I am not a silly girl...I am a woman with a plan.