Thank You to My Readers

The year is coming to a close...this week. I have just learned I have people around the world reading my blog. Amazing!!! You all make me feel so special I want to hug you all and say thank you!!!! I started writing my blog as a class project in my Basic Reporting class at Hunter College. So for me it was a hobby but then as time has passed it has become in weaved into my life and the many chapters past, present, and future. I love writing and I love that I get to tell people about my stories and thoughts.
Honey Brown Sugar allows me to do that  with this blog...I try to help,educate, give advice, and share everything going on in my world. My story will continue to be more interesting I promise. I will also include more news-related stories too. But for now, you get to learn about little me...a girl from jersey city who recently moved back to new york to find herself, start a new life,
And make her dreams come true.
2012 feels like its going to be really exciting and fun I have a lot up my sleeve so my dear readers I thank you for sticking in their with me as I continue on my career as a journalist, a producer, writer, a young twenty something woman, and most of all "Honey Brown Sugar"...stay tuned there's always more to share.
Happy Holidays!!!! Have a Beautiful New Year. Thank you so much

"Learning to accept the truth in my heart"

something is bugging me maybe I need to accept that this person may not be the man I want him to be. With him its like a coin toss heads you're in my heart  and on my mind. This sounds crazy but the other night I was reading this article just for fun.  Called 10 signs of when you're in love. Funny right? well as I read along everything made sense and became clear to me.
Yeah I am and its time for me to accept and cannot deny I am in love with this person. Yet we haven't done things the proper way though...
I am actually a traditional, hopeless romantic with a creative flair for showing my love to people I adore and whole dear to my heart.
For him dinner at a five star restaurant would be ideal, a ride through central park in a horse and carriage  ride.
I want to take him to clubs, new broadway shows, vacations to places I have always dreamed of too. Taking him to concerts you know I feel like I have been losing myself a bit....The things I used to do were fun maybe its because of funds. But one thing he will know about me my ideas never end and my goals always get accomplished.
Now aside from that I cannot pressure him....I know how he feels about me certain ways.
Yet I don't want this to be a physical connection only. I am better than that!
I don't even want to date anyone else....doesn't that sound weird. I just want to be with him now. But I have to see how he really feels though...and if he really wants me. 

Christmas Memories

I had a blast this week I was mainly by myself but there is something magical about being here in New York around Christmas time. So many people come here from all over the world to spend time with their families and friends. I think I fell in love with new york again.
It was so much fun being here this week watching the tourists at the windows being amazed by the department store displays on Fifth Avenue.

Christmas always brings back happy memories when I was a little girl my mom brought me books called "Twelve Days of Christmas". she also brought me my first bible too. I remember that book cause that was how I learned all the Christmas songs. I am happy that I had those experiences being able to sing songs in my catholic schools and public school in washington, dc. Living in jersey going to catholic school learning all of these songs and the power of the message of God and the story. It hits home now.
I have so many funny memories of Christmas....discovering my mom ate the chocolate chip cookies and egg nog. Buying Christmas presents, and even one year a Charlie Brown Christmas tree.
So for me its always full of happy memories and so much. I have a lot of people who I adore and have blessed me over my twenty-five year journey.
This will be my 25th Christmas so I am excited its like a big party I get to be with a lot of people who I adore. It would be good to have the whole family or crew with us.
However I am building beautiful memories. Here are some photos of my christmas city shots 2011

Major big things in 2011

I cannot believe just how much happened in my life this year....I just realized that quite a lot has happened its amazing. A lot has changed I was listening to someone say big things in life can change your life. A lot has happened though I left my job...I was about to fall in love with this one guy but it never worked out he just wasn't the one...another guy just didn't have it but he and I will always be friends.  When I left my job in January I did not realize just how much was getting ready to change. I knew leaving was right for me. I was in the wrong industry....but at the same time something prepared me. That experience prepared me though working at a small law firm I believe prepared me on how to manage my time, how to work independently, and also keep structure. Also enjoy life and to really appreciate the finer things too.
So leaving there was no bad terms....I left because I was ready to follow my dream. Next change came was my mom telling me we would move....We moved September 25, 2011 we moved to New York. Now we have lived in new york but never manhattan. So its a new experience. For me living in Manhattan now its good it really is I feel settled like now everything will fall into place.
So I found a new job with the help of my family and power of social media connections. It all worked out beautifully really. I was home mostly looking for my dream job. So its been a blessing.
Next big change was on a deeper level...the loss of some special people I think I learned now enjoy every moment. Have fun...keep doing and achieving your goals. Keep living and achieving what I have always wanted....The next big change was meeting 6 amazing people who will be a big part of my life professionally and personally.
Another major thing for me was learning how to really feel comfortable with me....opening up again. Taking some major risks....so 2011 changed me a lot inside . I took some big steps to become better and I believe these decisions will be good for me.
I met someone who when I am around makes me sooooo giddy and happy.. I miss him when he is not around me. So that is always good. It makes me realize now all that time I took to myself paid off. It feels really good. I believe 2012 will be exceptional too...there is still so much for honey brown sugar to do and share also. I am excited!!!! Cannot wait let the parties and journey continue on too. Honey Brown Sugar has more in store. 

Need to Clarify Some Things

I need to clarify some things.....I have so many emotions running through my body, a thousand thoughts in my head, and my instincts are like damn....what do I do now? I don't want to play games, I don't want to be childish. I want to ddevelop something special with this man. I know we have the potential to get there.
I don't just want the physical with him. its about a genuine connection. I am happy with him. I can accept he is far from perfect , I can accept his vices, but one thing I cannot lie someone up on the man I want. Ever since I was girl I always wanted the man everyone else always did.
Now that I am an adult that has not changed....I have had a lot of experiences and now I realize I want to be with someone who wants what I want too.
The man I am dating "handsomeness"...he and I have a incredible connection...his taste in music, his dreams, he asked me something I never had a man ask me so fast " How many children do you want?" I said "four"....I cannot deny it...there would be no other man I would desire to have children with  he has a high rank. every other boy or man I liked or loved I just know it would never work ever. I have had some of my boyfriends tell me I want you to hve my children. But for the first time....There's nothing wrong with the man I am interested in that could complain about. He is beautifully imperfect, he is intelligent, funny, silly, talented, sexy, and he has a lot to bring to the table.
We have known each other now it will be a year in april. I have started dating him probably june..we didn't get real serious not until now which is six months. there was no other person I adore...when the earthquake hit in manhattan this summer. the only man I thought of besides my parents and family was him. that funny? It made me realize I adore him soooo much. I still do....we will see stay tuned always more inside the world of honey brown sugar.

I've been getting tested with life

lol...I have been getting tested with a lot of things lately its crazy cause I have always been calm and strong with things. Now  lately I have been more vulnerable though I think cause a lot of things have  been making me feel that way. I hate letting my guard down cause I am really protective of myself. I usually keep everything to myself but now....I feel like a lot of things have let down my inner protection and emotions. I do not like showing that side but now I guess my human side is coming out. I think ever since my  uncle passed it has brought my dad's side of the family and I closer. it  also has let my dad seen different sides of my personality too lol. So now it makes me realize I am stronger than what I think I am. I gotta remember that....I  have had so much on my mind. I have been losing sight of who I am and what I have learned in this city too. I guess cause a lot has been clouding my judgment.
Now I need to remember who I am I can make it through anything if I just calm down....breathe...say what's on my mind. A lot of people have been testing me and I am trying hard not too break. I have to remember why I am here and why this happened to get my mom and my life in order. Also to continue to do what my mission is too. become a journalist...share my story....and make my dream come true. Continue my friendships find new ones....and develop professional relationships. also develop a healthy relationship with handsomeness too.

Getting to know "Handsomeness"

I call him "Handsomeness" because he truly is so beautiful. He has been asking to spend time with me and its been a blessing actually for me. Like everything I ever wanted and have been literally dreaming of is coming true. I am happy so happy to be in this place where there's no judgment....I can be myself. I am making a new friend and I am also sooooo attracted to him inside and out. He makes me realize no one is perfect that flaws can be beautiful too. You can enjoy a flaw about a person that others may disapprove of too. Not until you know them and spend time with them. I guess I need to thank timing, my opportunities, prayer, and my heart. I followed my heart this time and my mind. I know what I am getting into and no matter what I love that its happening at this point in my life. I need and do deserve love happiness and a person to make me smile. I feel so good about him cause he just has something special in his smile and heart. He"s going to make me a better person and woman too. This time I have to step up I do not care about the other guys in my past......I am done. They will soon have to acknowledge  my family and friends. There isn't anyone else I want around me those guys were apart of me for a reason. Now I feel like this man.... Handsomeness is going to allow me to grow with him, unveil more, and now I can share my life with a new best friend. Stay tuned folks....always more to come

Coming into my new yorkness

3 months ago we moved here and I can tell you life has kicked up a few notches and I see that in the end this move was for the best. Although I have so much to do still financially to get on track. New york life and living in manhattan agrees with me and feels good to be here. I am glad that everything is falling into place and there are a lot of great things ahead. That makes me excited I am relying a lot on faith in God and just really believing that in the end he is the one who controls and has a plan in mind too. New york has always been a special part of my life....professionally its coming together....spiritually I am finding which direction is for me....physically I am learning to take better care of my body now even more...you can stretch a dollar and still be healthy. Personally...I am getting there I need to find new girlfriends and more people. I always cherish my friendships from my past they are my sisters. However building new friendships is good....I am going to build a better relationship w/my brother, and I see  a lot of goodness coming. One thing l have learned how to make it through anything. If you can make it here you will get thru anything

When Life Hits You....it gives you a wake up call

I have been busy this past week and a half really learning the truth of life, love, and why we as humans get such an amazing gift. My uncle who is my father's brother passed away this past November. November sometimes can be a crazy month for me as far as my birthday goes always good but November has a lot of significance with me because now I have lost two people in that month my baby brother, Michael and my uncle, Juan Cortez Riccardo the third he was born June 1st, 1951 and he was called Junie. He passed November 18, 2011 from a long battle with lukemia, congestive heart failure, a battle with his kidneys. He was an amazing man though and I wish we could have had more time together and laughs. I am happy I had a chance to get to know him and hear his stories. We actually have a lot in common more than our last name. We like the finer things in life, we appreciate beauty of nature and vibrant things too. I love that and we also don't judge people we love with our hearts hard and give all we can. One thing I will cherish going to visit my family opened my eyes completely! Now I see stick close to family and friends do everything you want to do and enjoy,enjoy....even ifyou're not a millionaire take care of yourself and treat it like la dolce vita...its so precious. I dedicate this blog entry to all of those who have passed this year Randy, Mikey, Nora, Uncle Jewel, Sandy, Eddie K, my dads Aunt Roberta, and last my uncle Junie lord please be with all of the families and friends of these people.

Silence the Heart

You ever met someone who you believed was not supposed to be with who they were with at that time. I know it sounds crazy because of free will but just like an instinct as if you know you are supposed to be with this person. I adore him and I hate hiding my feelings cause I am an open book when it comes to love. But now I have to back off, I have to silence my heart though because while this person is with someone else.
I just know he has such high potential he would add a lot to my life but then again maybe time will tell. We will see what happens in the future I believe something big will be happening though in the next couple years....for now silence my heart and won't let her open until this new person comes along.

All Grown Up but still No true Love

I am turning twenty-five tomorrow and I keep thinking about the future and what is coming. Then I keep thinking of the truth how I have not been madly in love with a person who felt exactly the same way as me. I feel like the girl who has everything but does not have that.
I have been in brief relationships the longest four months dating someone. Yet the truth is I am the girl who falls in love with men who are so similar to the men of her past.
I also need to fall in love with a person who genuinely loves me and who I am too. That is so important when it comes to relationships for me. I have never had a true Valentine, or even had my parents and family really fall in love with the man I am dating too. My family is cool they will support me no matter what - just believe a lot of people who know me know the right person will come find me. This person has to have an open mind and intelligence is high for me. Also a sense of confidence, security in himself, not over confident like arrogance but secure in himself and his flaws. I believe the physical will be simple the icing of the cake I need the man willing to accept the crumbs too lol!!!!
I believe I am getting close but now its about timing, schedules, acceptance, and two worlds colliding. Also a man who supports my dream like go baby go hurt either! LOL

So Complex

Why is this so compliated matters of the heart versus morals and ethics? I am in a situation where many women and men find themselves. Yet mine is very unique and different too cause it has many twists also. I am in the beginning stage of my career in media. I am at the stage of finding place in this business and I am enjoying it a lot because I believe I am going to fulfill my destiny and dream very soon. I just need more faith in me and the right tools to continue to get me there. I have a sincere feeling God's plan is about to come to fruition for me very soon. Time is rolling so fast and I am trying to catch up with all that needs to be done before my next chapter begins a new page. This a new chapter moving to new york is a new chapter. Also coming into my mid twenties is kind of a defining moment too. Now I have to step up even more as an adult. I am not feeling fulfilled yet I can do so much more. I am not going to feel fulfilled until everything is done. That is how I am all my goals have to be accomplished until I feel full. I feel emptiness for some reason. I can laugh and smile but I still don't feel complete yet.

On top of that...there is the person in my life I want to know so badly yet people believe I am crossing the line by dating someone in my industry of work. I feel like they should back off and let me handle this I know what I am doing and what risks are involved and the repercussions. I need this person in my corner cause I am joyful and at peace. I feel like he is just going to add so much more to my life if he were in my circle. I don't know what to do yet I need time to prove it all to me that I am not just imagining this but these feelings are real and I need him or if he should not be in my heart and head how do ignore him and move on? If I do the next guy will have to prove himself. Everything is too complex

How one moment can change your heart

I worked vigorously hard to put this man out of my mind. I kept myself busy I worked hard on and still keep my life pretty busy now. Yet this man I will call him Soul Songbyrd. Soul Songbyrd and I have known one another a long period of time since Honey Brown Sugar was a young little girl. Soul Songbyrd was Honey's first real crush. Yet they could never be together cause of their age difference. Years went by time passed she changed went on her with her life and so did he. They saw each other again and she remembered him as  a teenager falling in love with his smile, his laugh, and his puppy dog chinky dark brown eyes. She knew one day he and herself had to share their lives together. Yet Soul Songbyrd had a woman he was in love with and adored. Honey Brown Sugar continued to grow and learn experiencing and enjoying her life. Eventually they crossed paths and went out together. She was grown and ready to know him. They went out and shared some moments but honey knew she had to let him go and move forward. She did and she met many interesting men along the way no one who stole her heart like him. Now Honey is in love with Handsomeness. Handsomeness is important to her and she believes she can really learn grow with him. Yet one minor detail...because Honey lives in the same city as Soul Songbyrd and now she has seen him crossing paths. Now her feelings are open....she wants to know him but honey is afraid her heart may get broken again....what to do....she's lost and needs to get back to lookin for someone new. Or perhaps someone may all ready be right for her.
Stay tuned....always a new chapter in the world of Honey Brown Sugar
Okay now Handsomeness has decided to go back to his Queen. Honey Brown Sigar was devastated by the news when she received a text message this morning. However, she knows love will come to her when she finds someone new. She cannot let that trump her or stop how she feels. Her life is too important and she has too much to do to let that mess her up. It hurts her heart a lot because she had such high hopes. But she knows there is another plan God has in mind and there will be a new person. There is too much going on in her world to let that crush her heart. Maybe there might be hope for her Soul Songbyrd? Or maybe a new king will be here soon too. You see how one moment can change everything in life its unbelievable at times.

I got the best of both worlds

Last month before I moved to New York I was stressed out worried about a new life there when suddenly I realized I have lived my life here just as much as I did in jersey city. It hit me when I was in church today that God does have divine plan for me. As much as my life has changed this year it is true.I  get the best of both worlds. I get a chance to really live here and I do believe my life is getting ready to change. There's a person inside me always wanted to be tougher, stronger, wiser, and more accepting of my flaws and everything about who I am too. One thing about being in new york and to be here now and really be living my life here makes me see I  have a chance to reinvent myself now. I have a shot to make the life I want and dream come to life now. I am on my way.....stay tuned. I feel really good about the path I have chosen I feel a sense of peace and joy now. I can get used to this now and I am going to put my best foot forward this chapter of my life is special.

I got the best of both worlds

Last month before I moved to New York I was stressed out worried about a new life there when suddenly I realized I have lived my life here just as much as I did in jersey city. It hit me when I was in church today that God does have divine plan for me. As much as my life has changed this year it is true. get the best of both worlds. I get a chance to really live here and I do believe my life is getting ready to change. There's a person inside me always wanted to be tougher, stronger, wiser, and more accepting of me and everything about me. to be here now and really be living my life here makes me see have a chance to reinvent myself now. I have a shot to make the life I want and dream come to life now. I am on my way.....stay tuned

Deep Inside the world of Honey Brown Sugar

I have a lot going on inside my little world actually. I have recently moved to new york. A place I adore and love but I am dealing with a lot this year. It is time for me to be honest about some things. I have an internship I am doing that is my dream job and while I am working and doing something close to my area of interest. I am dealing with personal things that are almost eating away from me. One its almost like a soap opera or a sitcom for the people I work with and what I have to intake sometimes. I walked into my internship with nervousness and high apprehension. I knew this is where I belong. Now months  have gone by and I have gotten to know people I feel like now I have walked into a really complicated situation. I am meeting people who I thought I would build long friendships with but now I am really getting lost. I am stuck with frustration some days and I am supposed to be joyful. Money is still tight and I am supposed to be moving toward the future gettng my own place, a car and building my life too. I am starting to feel lost. I have got a lot going on bugging me. I thought I had everything figured out but now my inner circle is making me realize I still have so much inside of me I still need to work on now. 6 months ago I was happy now I am questioning everything.
Even the man I thought I was in love with and I am I cannot let him go cause we have not been out properly but the truth is I am crazy about him and its complicated cause we work around one another. I am at a lost now and I need to move forward. I need to get back to my goals they always keep me focused they become apart of me because they are changing me inside and outside too literally.
I believe this year for my twenty fifth birthday the biggest gift I can give myself is a chance to find my happiness and the life I want too. Also a vacation I need to get in touch within inside of me mentally ad emotionally again cause I still have a lot to build on again. I still have a lot to work on in some relationships of mine too. I also know soon I need to get back to my spiritual side, exercising again, and just rebuilding myself. One thing about my zodiac sign and this is just something I have always loved we as Scorpios are driven, we can get  side tracked in our lives, but that is just our way of transforming ourselves. we are passionate people about everything and we are loyal. I am loyal by nature. I also love to transform myself cause I am able to dig within and be a better Chloe. I am looking forward to that part of my journey. There is a lot ahead of me and I know very soon I am going to gain my strength back and I will be a better me.

Last week in my hometown JC

I have loved living here in jersey city. I still remember the first day  i came to visit my mother it was Christmas 1996 and I had just turned 10 I was living with my father in Washington, D.C. In the fifth grade at bancroft elementary school  at the time. I have loved being here cause it changed my perspective on everything. I learned the value of self respect, self worth, loyalty from friends, loved ones, and how to always follow your passion and dreams. One thing I love most was the conveniency and literally watching th neighborhood transform from a blank canvas full of promise to a metropolitan downtown area full of cool places to meet people in a rich mixed used community. Our neighborhood is very busy constantly rapidly changing just as fast as life goes too. So to witness and experience that is a blessing in itself.
I am pretty nervous but I am also excited too because I know where we are moving too is a big difference in neighborhood but does not lack in diversity. I will be in another popular city location but this time does feel different everything does like I am on my way to a new path ahead of me. It is odd but funny how some things work out in a weird way. Okay here me out I always wanted to live in new york. One cause I love the atmosphere and I have grown up there too. Yet I thought my life really would not have began there until I had a full 9 to 5 and like 5 to 6 figures in my pocket too. But with the unpredictable way life truly is and what the universe hands you is a blessing in its own way too. So my life will be in new york and things are working out in some odd way and we will see what God, the universe, my inner circle, and me of course have in store for the future and our life in new york. its just mom and I our little duo aso we will see what our lives will be like ahead. I am remaining positive but it is bittersweet too. I will miss you JC (Jersey City) thanks for all the memories

The introduction of TDH

I am realizing a lot of things that keep me wondering who I really am and if the man I want to be with can handle all of these things about me.  Let us call himTDH (Tall Dark and Handsome). He comes in the room and I am filled with joy right away and its like the sunshines brightly blue skies clear no clouds in sight and all the birds chirp singing. He makes my world better he adds the peace love and harmony to honey brown sugars world. he makes me feel like we would be greatness together as one. I feel like everything is better with him in it. Now I am not kind of woman who needs completion from a man I am too independent for that.I would simply like for him and I just to have our worlds collide and build together. He and I have a lot in common and I adore so much about him. One thing he should be aware of is  I am very self-reliant and have learned how to trust my instincts. Yet there has not been a lot of real genuine love when it comes to matters of my heart. I feel real potential one day for TDH and me. am not settling at all. I am also not going to consume myself with one person but when am right about a person I just know this person and I have the potential to grow together into a powerful unit. I believe in him all ready and I have no doubt we will be develop into amazing friends....we shall see

Silly Girl

1930s actress and sex symbol Mae West glamour shot

<><><>We all go through little moments where before the real thing comes along you have to go through a lot to get there first. I believe I am half way there...and I'll be able to get to the right person.--Honey Brown Sugar

Dating should be less about matching outward circumstances than meeting your inner necessity.”

      “The best way to find your perfect match is to meet love halfway.”

“Don't cry for a man who's left you, the next one may fall for your smile.”--Mae West

She knew how to get them even if it was just a movie...I love how she felt about getting the attention of men she took it with a grain of salt...but never over did it...she had a lot of skills when it comes to men. That's why I love her =)

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe

I am sitting here and I know sometimes the voices we tend to ignore when people talk to us  usually are right.This pertains to a young man in my life
I knew in my heart that one day I would see this person.
I had dreamed of them for years but I went on with my life too.

I constantly wondered could he and I reunite
Well we did and it took the power of social media and technology to do that.
So he finally found me...
Sure it was adorable and even sweet.
Of course when you are a person who is looking for real,pure, genuine love in your life.
You have a tendency to be open to all possibilities.

I didn't want to shut myself off completely especially when yeah I had my heartbroken too.
I never wanted to actually cut myself off from the world. Or from people
I knew the best thing to do was focus on my goal, my dream, and what I need to do to get there. Which is extreme hard work, drive, focus, and you have to pay attention to everything around you. Even what is happening at the moment. Cause in my line of business...media...you have to know what's going on at all times. Past and present...and ready to discover a lot even about yourself too. So when it comes to my dreams I take it seriously and my love life even more too. I am not saying that's everything but I deserve my own life just as any other young adult.

I am also human too...distractions come along, you see all the romantic comedies, you see all of your friends and family. Then I even realize I haven't had this real person in my heart genuine, real, no hidden agendas, no craziness,  no disrespect (or maybe there was passive-aggressively) a person with real honesty.

It's hard to find that....yet at the same time people find it everyday. Am I being just a silly girl?
I am not one to ever be that way.
I take love and life seriously. I am giving and try my best to give what I have....yet I don't want to be a silly woman...I want to be taken seriously I have all ready proven myself as an adult.

Now I need the man who's right for me to prove himself that he is worthy, he will cherish, and respect me.
I have worked hard to get where I am at..I really have and just being looked at as a silly girl....that's unfair and unbelievable too.  Cause I can be silly when its time but I am serious about my life.
I am serious about what I want to...and that should never be taken lightly ever.  I have to remember I am too smart to be silly no way....I cannot ever forget that. Too much is at stake to be getting distracted to act that way. I am not a silly girl...I am a woman with a plan.

The Help Movie Review

THE HELP BOOK COVER WRITTEN BY: KATHRYN STOCKETT

The beautiful cast of "The Help" left to right Viola Davis, Bryce Howard Dallas
Emma Stone, and Octavia Spencer

The defining moment the last good-bye of the two main characters

THE HELP MOVIE POSTER (AUGUST 2011)

Inspirational...Phenomenal...Wise...You feel the soul of that time period. It tugs immediately at your heart like a slow, strumming guitar.


Picture 1963...during the twentieth century in Mississippi its surrounded around All American upper class families and they have African-American maids coming to raise their children. Yet there's a twist to the story they are allowed to raise their children they can be doting, loving, attentive, affectionate, and compassionate. They can build their self-esteem and also give them the proper care they need...yet there's one thing they aren't allowed to use the restrooms of the employers. They are permitted to go to what is known as a potterpotty today.
They are treated like second class citizens but they're primarily the ones responisble for raising the children of these people.

That's the part of the story where a young, aspiring journalist named, Skeeter who decides to give the maids a chance to share their story. I loved this part because this really made me see that at that time it was about taking risks, being bold, you needed powerful leaders to get to where you wanted to be and so you can have a chance to prove you deserve more, equality was what our leaders fought for at the time. I loved Skeeter's character cause I saw a bit of her spirit in myself too. She reminded me a lot of where I would like to be in my life.

At the same time she showed and proved that women like that are what make America what it is today having the freedom to your own life, your own career, you become you're own person.  That was inspirational. The other characters Aibileen, Minnie, Celia, and Hilly were all full of richness and very well written characters. I loved Mae Mobley the adorable little girl who is taken care of by Aibileen such an adorable little child. She made me lose it in the movie theater in one part of the movie. So be ready for kleenex.

Aside from just everything put together it appears each character was written perfectly, a rich story was being told, and the people who played each character were played well in each of their roles.
I loved the backstory and the setting as well because you feel like you know them in a way too.

Heartwarming it pulled at my heart strings and I cried a bit because on a personal level it warms your heart the story, what they went through, the history, the struggle of racism, civil rights, and social class too. 

HBS's rate (Honey Brown Sugar's rate for "The Help" five stars) We may see an Oscar nomination in the future. I hope so it was that good.

Go see it and take your mothers, girlfriends, wives, sisters, cousins to see it and do a ladies luncheon and get a slice of Chocolate pie lol!!! Inside joke.

Natural Surprise Disasters make an impact

YEAH I REALLY SURVIVED IT =)!!!!!

I heard about the storm before it even came along I heard a woman talking about the weather being bad and I remembered thinking what will happen now we just survived the earthquake of course we can survive the rest of the situation. One lyric from a well known song "Firework" I was watching the video I love the song, the message, and the artist who produced and wrote it too 2011 VMA winner and pop singer, Katy Perry made a powerful message to me the other day "After a hurricane comes a rainbow"....and just like that after 48 hours of strong, powerful winds, and monsoon rains pouring down all over the east coast. Turned into one of the most beautiful days I saw in Washington. I happened to leave Friday because I knew in my heart I did not want to get stuck. Also listening to the mayor made a huge impact on me. I knew the best thing follow your instinct and do what is right for survival.
 One thing you realize is you can survive anything when you pay attention, you realize your a person, you ask for help from those you love, and you stay close to them you can manage to get through anything. I also realized that I am not scared of any natural disaster that it didn't terrify me because being a born New Yorker/ Jersey Girl you realize that you can face anything. I have pretty much been able to do anything and manage to realize there really is a purpose for everything. Everything has its own time....everything comes when its supposed to happen. You cannot control everything you just put your skills to the test and manage to get through anything. I am realizing that these things can be put to use for every day life. You have to always focus on what is really important....try to remember there are other people who need you too out there. People need each other as well especially in times of stress it is absolutely nothig wrong with showing vulnerability and showing your true emotion too. These two natural disasters made me see the real impact of God pretty much....how everything is really out of our control in the end. He's doing this all for his master plan as well.

Content Issues and Review should be "Life Issues and Review"

I am doing a very fun temp job right now where I get to help build a website. I was thinking about something so funny that is rather serious at work...but I thought let's apply it to life though. What if we had a thing called Life Issues and Review....where you can have a website that allowed you a chart you put a box where your issue is...then someone reviews it and they put the day they reviewed your issue. You discuss how you feel and it's just simple. I wish someone had a Life Issues and Review website it would be so simple because this is one way human beings can communicate. They can talk again and they have a chance to really discuss what they want, what they need, and helps build their character. You become a stronger, wiser, and smarter person too. 

I would love a Life Issues and Review...we review the issue and then, discuss, and figure out what would make you or possessed you to come up with that decision as well. So we will see. Maybe that's something the next genius, self-help guru can come up with too. Just give me 50 percent of the profit though cause it is my idea you know. =)

Hearing all these love songs everywhere.....

I hear all these love songs everywhere....I constantly think of this person and it makes me smile.
I love when I get that feeling it reminds me of the first time I fell in love with someone a long time ago.
The feeling you get of wanting to be around just them all the time.


Following them like a precocious little child wanting to get your attention and time.
I hear these love songs and instantly return to this place of just being happy genuinely happy. All the romantic ideas come back, all the fantasies in my mind start to come to life, all the dreams I begin to imagine of that person and I make me realize there is a possibility and this could really happen. 


I love how there is still a lot I have not experienced yet and I am nearing 25....Like having my first real valentine (lol) I know crazy isn't it...lol...This special person will be my 1st valentine lol =)


Having this person really be in my life and get to know the real me. 


There's a lot to learn about me I come with layers lol...and you better be ready. 


The love songs I hear make me want to be silly, run and go behind this person. Grinning from ear to ear just happy. Dress up and put on my flyest outfit. This person makes me want to be better, want to be wiser, makes me want to become a better person for some strange reason. 

How can I be so infatuated and I have not had a proper date with you yet? It makes me wonder....is it just I am ready fall in love. Am I ready to actually start singing these love songs to you. =)

A brief timeline of my life in New York

There's a young lady out there who has really been inspiring me behind the scenes and she really has been making me love writing and the power to just express yourself. It's bringing me back to another place in my life.
This past weekend I was in New York getting my passport...It's so funny because as I am standing there looking at my documents. I notice several things. One thing I immediately notice is the fact that I see on my birth certificate the day I was born, the place I was born, and then of course my name. Life is strangely funny in certain ways. It's almost like I was supposed to be in New York all along. It's so funny....there are many things that could have stopped me or prevented me from being in New York but for some reason it always works out in my favor. Is it because I was born in New York perhaps? Does the city somehow know I am here when I am....it's funny.

As I am looking at my documents, observing this large empty post office that could be filled with tons of people inside but only just about eight or nine people behind me. I notice all these little kids around me restless playing and waiting for their parents to get their passports too. Then I see on my passport how the first time I got my passport I was fourteen years old. I remember that day well actually I was with my mom and we happened to be around the same area as her job.

So we got my passport ready because that year I was heading to the Bahamas with her old friend and her daughter. There certain things in your life you don't forget. I remember I was about to transfer to a new high school because I wanted to go to school to in New York.

I made this decision to leave the school I was at, all my best friends, who I never forgot but I left it for New York. Do I regret it no...not at all. New York changed me completely.

I loved being there and I have not one regret it has changed me but I never forgot where I lived, where I came from or any of those things.

There's a quote from one of my favorite celebrities that says" The things that we love stay with us and remain close in our hearts"-Josephine Baker. I love that quote because it's so true I have had a lot that has always remained in my heart. New York is part of that.

So back to the passport though...

I looked at the year and saw it was 2001 when i got my passport....it would expire in 2006 and it took me 5 years to get my passport renewed again which is hilarious...a whole decade to get my passport renewed because my life has been that busy.

So when I saw that it made me realize how over a decade how much I accomplished in New York....in 2001 of September I started high school...in 2002...I celebrated my sweet 16 in new york...in 2003 when I turned 17 i celebrated in NY again...in 2004 I graduated from high school at the most well known Cathedral (St. Patrick's Cathedral)...I also began working there....for a year I worked in New York at a radio station...in 2007 I started at Hunter College...in 2010 I would graduate from Hunter College....so it's funny...how things work out in your life...All of these things lined up for you.

I owe this city so much and I have a lot to discuss in 2011...I started my new job...learned how to really work two jobs, I owe this city tremendously and it keeps giving back to me and I to it....so I just want to say keep growing with me New York you and I will stick together. =)

It's funny how your passport and documents can tell you more about yourself than you can actually. 

I believe you're worth it

I was thinking to myself wow.....maybe it's possible all of this has been for a reason in the end. I believe you're worth it. I believe you're different, unique, and special just like every other person on the planet. You've been through happy times and sad times I can see it in your eyes. You have fight in you I see that too. It's not abrasive it's subtle it comes out sometimes. 
You would be worth having around because of your confidence, your intelligence, your energy, and your heart. I have only known you briefly but I know you would be so worth the time and company. 


I know you're worth it cause we have similarities, too much in common yet you'll never know until we actually have a conversation a bit more. 
I believe the person who is worth it is when you take the time to invest in them. Not rushing for just the pleasure of being near them or with them. It's about the inner part of them. 
Some may think I only based or judged my love interests only by sight. I judged far more than that. I judged by character, by personality, by the way they treated me and vice versa. Also by the connection too and I know when someone is worth my time and having. There's a feeling in your gut you get when a person is supposed to be around you.  So I know you're worth it. 

A new journey

I came here to Jersey City, New Jersey when I was ten and half years old in June of 1997. I remember that year and date well because I was just leaving my school. You know how some things stay with you for a long time. I believe the first time I came here I knew I was entering a new beginning, a new opportunity, and a place that literally transformed me into the person I became now.
This is bittersweet for me. When something hits me hard then I know I need to blog about it now. I love my home when I first came here I was so shy, so timid, and afraid of letting go because I didn't know what to expect back then. I didn't realize back then that I had a history with this part of the country. That my history would be the way for me to make it through.

One thing I am right next door to New York where I was born so that was one way to bring me back into feeling comfortable. Also I had people who loved and cared about me long before I even made it there too. I was lost when you're an only child, a little girl, and you're really out of place. You need a lot to keep you motivated and to push you too. I love my neighborhood because it's quiet, comfortable, there is a rich diversity here, full of people from all walks of life. People with stories to tell and so much more. I trust the people enough to know here that I can walk late at night and make it back to my home safe and sound.

I have met so many people here who opened their hearts to me accepted, embraced, and just gave me all of their love too. It's hard because I am usually always down for a new adventure a new challenge. Yet my heart is attached to this house too. I guess because I have grown up so much here it's funny to me some of things I have done. I can laugh at myself like "I did that jesus!"....or I said that whew....I wouldn't say that now would I? Probably not. My heart is really in this home....I tried everything to fight for it....giving up my prized possessions. Yet there's a reason why my mom made this my home. This is my home with her because she gave me everything I possibly needed and more for any occasion. This home has helped heal me, console me, protect me, and even just make me realize how valuable this family is to me and even my friendships too.
There's something that aches a bit maybe it's because I realize that I am taking  a new step into a new place again. I kind of don't care this time a bit cause I've paid my dues plus I am not going to far though either. Yet I love this place so much.
I am going to miss the people who have helped mold me too.
So I am going to say good-bye classy as always and tearfully walk away with my head held high. =(
I am not that little shy girl anymore she's  been gone for  a while actually. She's somewhere hiding....lol. Yet I know I have to move forward....if I don't then I'll never know what's ahead and what's part of my next destiny, my next learning experience, my next life lessons. =)

Do we miss and skip over the nice guys ladies

Do we skip over the nice guys ladies and always go for the bad boys.
I always wonder what makes us think that he is the better choice.
Is it because sometimes we have a tendency to believe it will be just dull
I dont think so because it's more pleasant this way.


You don't have to stress over anything and look for a headache cure like Tylenol or Excedrin.
The best way to ease your peace of mind and heart. You should choose a good, sweet nice boy. I am sure some people would think "What's she saying? she's dated some bad boys too" Yeah but I have also met some really nice boys too and I believe they made me realize you need something with some substance too.


Not only that but you can mix and combine the two together he can be a perfect gentlemen and have a little badness in him too. I am not talking about morally more so on a personality and behavior thing. His way of treating you. That's what I mean. You want a high quality nice boy not poor quality bad boy or a man who does have some interesting qualities that keep you attracted and easy to relate to him too.

So sleep on the nice guys he may be exactly what you need in your life right now. Also he may surprise you too. 

No One Wants a Horrible Boss like this in Horrible Bosses the film

BEWARE WATCH OUT FOR BOSSES LIKE THESE AND GO SEE HORRIBLE BOSSES IN THEATERS NOW !

Have you ever had a horrible boss in your life who just needed to blow some steam off and say what's going on in your head to them. Well this is exactly what these three actors did in this film. I thought it was genius because everyone has this fantasy in their head. Yet you know you can never act it out cause you want to keep your job. This was the perfect hilarious take on this movie. I enjoyed it and couldn't stop laughing at some of the insane things these guys did to prove a point to all three of their bosses. I loved Kevin Spacey's character hilarious, kind of "Dr.Evillish" but he had the kind of personality that makes you see you need to bring this man's ego down a few notches he's got it on overload. Jennifer Aniston was amazing and funny in this film a big difference from the good-girl no pun intended characters that she plays in other films. Her character was like the insane, psycho, bitchy, boss you never want to encounter ever in life. I thought it was genius to make her into someone you can never see her playing cause she's known as a "good girl" in Hollywood. Jamie Foxx as "Motherf***in Jones" a complete difference than the suave, debonair man we see in real life.  I loved the film and it was hilarious. Go see Horrible Bosses this summer, grab some popcorn, soda, and get your Laugh On!!!!!

"Friends with Benefits" premiere!!!

Can we be friends with benefits? The first time I heard this term was back in high school at age fourteen lol. Now that I am almost twenty-five can this term actually still exists. Can we be friends with benefits, is that just a cover up for I am your "girlfriend" or "boyfriend" without the label? Well some very clever writers and directors just put that to the test in the hot new summer romantic comedy film. I attended with the help of a very cool website an exclusive movie screening of "Friends with Benefits" starring pop heartthrob, actor, musician, songwriter, Justin Timberlake and well known television and film actress, Mila Kunis. 
"The Friends and Benefits" premiere definitely made me very excited. It was almost like taking a backseat look into my life within the last probably five or six years. It was a good way to see how this generation's take on relationships can be nowadays. How we perceive relationships, what we want, and what we desire now. Especially what every person wants is to be with someone who they can be their best friend as well as their lover too. That is something that you need on a regular basis to fill you up and make you happy too. It's a great way to keep your relationship exciting. I loved Mila Kunis's performance and Justin Timberlake's performance. As well as Emma Stone "F***in John Mayer!!!" lol hilarious.You will see exactly what I mean in the film. 
The cast was hilarious it took you into a new dimension on films and almost made it a big realistic too. It wasn't like a sappy, romantic love film. It was a bit more like real life and some of the emotions were very real. I saw a sensitive part of Justin Timberlake that I really enjoyed and I loved how the character came across. Smart, business like, yet he wasn't like some perfect lothario. He really was like a normal guy but with flaws too. That is something that made it a lot more realistic and down to earth too. It made it easy to relate to and enjoyable. I give it five stars!!!! My friend and I enjoyed it a whole lot. Couldn't stop laughing especially since it took place in one of my favorite cities New York it was a bit satirical on romance films and New York romance films. Yet it was relatable too. Loved it. Go see it this summer immediately July 2011 it hits theaters. 

Happy Father's Day To All the Fathers (dedicated to my dad, Jewel Riccardo)

"Happy Father's Day"


When I was a little girl you video taped my ballet recitals, my birthday parties, dancing at parties with you, singing in the car, all of the  little fascinating moments of my life. I believe that was when I realized how much I loved the camera and also how every moment of my life was so important to you. That made me see how special I was to you. I cherish that a lot because I believe that even if you may not have the most idyllic, perfect father-daughter relationship. I had a father who adored, loved, supported my dream. Made me see that I needed to open myself up to the world so they can see who I am as a person. Open up and make me see how special my life was too.


I enjoy what you taught me how to ride my first bike, how to iron my clothes, how to cook, and everything else has meant a lot to me. We may have been miles apart but I have never forgotten those memories. Every little girl looks at her father like a superhero. Someone they believe is amazing and can achieve anything. No matter how many obstacles that have both come our way. I am glad that you and I have had a chance to really grow up and have you in my life.

Yeah I am a Daddy's Girl too =)

 I believe you can make it through anything. You have gone through some battles too like I have as well.  I know secretly I will always be "Daddy's Little Girl"...I show no favoritism at all to either one of you but I know we have a special bond...you are my father and I want to honor you for father's day. You make me laugh, you've given me a lot to think about, cherish, and I am glad to have you. You make me see how important not only is a mother in a child's life but you must have a father too. I am very happy to know that I have a father who loves me no matter what I decide to do in my life. You are a true testament to me that it's okay to be yourself, you can make it through challenges, and you can also heal yourself too.  So for father's day this is for you!


Love to all the fathers, grandfathers, great-grandfathers, stepfathers, and soon-to-be fathers too.
Happy Father's Day Raise your children and adopted children unconditionally they need you more than you know. 

So love this it shows how a real father loves to bond with his newborn =)

Remember when you Mirror Mirror On the Wall: I am beautiful and Special that's All

Young Ladies,
This is my letter to you all on body image please try not to judge one another on your differences. Your natural beauty is what God and your parents have given you. Your character, your personalities, your spirits, and your joy is what should be cherished. Never allow anything to make you feel inferior or less than at all. The most important thing you need to remember is every person on this planet is different. We all each individual man or woman, teen, or child. You are unique different in life experiences, different in  your appearances, and all of what makes you unique. 


So remember when you look in the mirror, when you present yourself to the world. Keep this mantra to yourself and repeat in your head, embrace it, own it!, and believe it!


"Mirror Mirror On the Wall" Chloe Riccardo
Mirror Mirror On the Wall....I am Beautiful and Special That's All!
I will not feel inferior or less than because I am short or tall. 
No matter how many times I rise and fall
I will always treat myself as if I am the Queen at the ball. 




No matter how many looks or stares I receive. Remember it is I who can only please me.
I can only love and accept me. As well the ones who love and adore me.
So Mirror Mirror on the Wall...I am beautiful, strong, spirited, special, fierce, and I love me always most of all. 

CHRIS ROCK'S NEW PLAY:The M-F**KER with the Hat!

You have to see this play. I saw it a while ago and the images are still buried in my brain. I know Chris Rock is a hilarious comedic genius. Yet when he came out with this play this topic hit home in a way. It focused on one thing that I never agree with though....dating other people while you're in a good relationship, also the struggles we face in our every day lives. Also what personal challenges you can occur while you are with someone. How can you stand the test along with them too. How can you deal with them and try to keep your partner happy. Aside from that it's hilarious! As soon as I walked in the door I saw Chris Rock and John Cannavale on stage with Annabelle Sciorra. I took to my seat ready for plenty of laughs. He never fails to disappoint at all. It's free flowing with profanity yet in order to make this play grasp who we are as New Yorkers. You have to add a little profanity in sometimes. It just makes it more entertaining and open to people. It makes you realize for one thing that sometimes right under your nose someone sneaky can be hiding a secret about your relationship.Sometimes it can be the people we least expect sometimes...aside from that he also brought up a lot of other topics that makes you realize why people feel the way do about drug or substance abuse a topic for people that many struggle with too. A topic that sometimes that can cause stress yet Rock makes it entertaining and real. He makes you feel like you're watching a real couple on stage dealing with the issues on stage. I really enjoyed the topic and of course the writing was incredible. 5 stars from me Chris!!! Love you and good luck. Cannot wait to see more from you in the future.  For more information go to  http://www.ticketmaster.com

Can Romance & the Workplace Go Hand in Hand?

This topic has been on my mind a lot lately and I am sure a lot of twenty-somethings, new college graduates, adults, and everyone. The topic comes up so frequently. It's the age old discussion of mixing business with pleasure. Can you date or be in a relationship with someone in the workplace? Can this ever happen? In the workplace environment can a man and a woman or just two people find love and function properly in the workplace to? I have no idea anymore I am used to keeping and sticking to the books. You don't want to cross that line because too many emotions, reputations, and business is at stake. 


The awful knowledge of your co-workers suddenly finding out about your romance and relationship. You don't want their knowledge of what is happening in your relationship. Next is also the issue of what problems you both can face.  You have to deal with the fact of your business being disclosed, the possibility of your relationship becoming a water cooler conversation. Also displays of affection, conversations, and the couple disputes becoming part of office party gossip. 


Is this where you want to head towards? Who knows but what about the two people who are involved. What if the couple knew of each other before they even worked at the same office. Suppose they have been friends for years. Or they could have worked and dated together for years. In this day and age anything is possible. I just wonder how can you keep your relationship private and happy. Without all the knowledge of your co-workers, bosses, and anyone else involved at your company or field. 


Is it better to keep you work at work. For example they say "Don't S**T Where you eat!" So what do you do now? How can you make the relationship work and still keep your eye on the prize? How can you reach your goal and allow them to focus on their tasks. Is it better to keep pleasure and love out of the equation at work. Can we only focus on business? Or is their a fine line too. 

It's time to say goodbye to America's favorite talk show host Oprah Winfrey

Oprah Winfrey Show is coming to a close. It's time to say good-bye to our friend, talk show host, Oprah Winfrey! We will all around the world everyone will miss your show!!!!




Author, Actress, Television producer, Film producer, Philanthropist,  One of Forbes Magazine's Multibillionaire African American woman Magazine Creator/ Editor in Chief of "O Magazine", OWN Network owner, and extreme generous giver. One of my favorite people in the whole world is saying good-bye to her talk show this May of 2011. 25 years ago an unknown African American woman from Kosckiusko, Mississippi  and well known talk show host  for a small Baltimore television station  named Oprah Gail Winfrey. Winfrey walked in and would instantly change and cause people to fall in love with her. 


I knew I had to do this because she is one of the primary reasons I even considered media. Not just because of my background, my history, and what I have been exposed to but because I was one of those little girls who looked up to her when she was on television. As a teenager she impacted me even more, and now as an adult nothing but respect, gratitude, love, and admiration come to mind. 


Her story has changed my life and her show has helped me personally, spiritually, and I admire her work ethic. Oprah works hard when she wants something done. She gets it done. When she believes in a project she succeeds and she gives it all she has immediately. She took a leap of faith and has changed the world instantly. 


I am going to miss her so deeply and she has taught me and millions of others globally around the world. She taught us to view ourselves, our community in a way deeper than we could imagine. She has gone "deep into the roots" of the earth discovering the truth and secrets unknown. Then gone way up literally in the sky displaying that we can go up in the sky, past the sky, and exceed our own expectations. 
I believe so much in her journey and her story. I love how she has encouraged us to all read. The most crucial part of what you need to get through life. You have to know how to read in order to see, visualize, create, imagine, dream, describe, and of course think! Her generosity is so amazing, her heart so wide, and you can still speak to her about any topic. She will relate to it instantly and she can identify with it. She does not let her fame define her as well. She makes us see that real-life miracles can occur. Wake up and see everything is possible. She has changed a world and really had made me look at my life, my future, and just being a person and a new perspective. 


I wish I can call you "Godmommy O" LOL!!!!! That was I can say Godmomma O you are so special, thank you for never being judgmental to any of your guests, keeping a positive outlook to your guests and viewers, always making us want to move, and aspire people. I literally have grown up with your show. My mother told me since the womb I've watched. Hmmm...maybe that's why there's a connection?
I was born in 1986 so to see your show vastly change like a beautiful baby rose bud into a bloom into a rose garden it's amazing to see. You have helped so many people, my own family, and changed the whole media industry. I will miss your show Lady O. I look forward to being a part of the journey with  the O.W.N (Oprah Winfrey Network).

All of you if you haven't been to her website visit http://www.oprah.com/index.html

Jumping the Broom

I love this movie so much it was a different twist on to other wedding films. The story line was amazing and I really loved how each character stood out with their own touch of humor. Something thats important for a dramedy (comedy & drama) film. For a "dramedy" yeah I made up my own word, it's essential for the old method to have one straight lead character then a sidekick. You need a straight to set the tone, serious character then a comical character to support the other. In this film I recommend you will find both the characters were so rich and full of emotion. They connected with me a lot and seemed like real people you can find somewhere in your family too. I loved how it's a feel good comedy and it also hits home keeping up with the times of today too. You need that for a good "dramedy" film. Jumping the Broom will make you fall in love, want to fall in love, and jumping up from your movie seat with laughter as well. Hysterical, amazing, funny, and entertaining too. Everyone and anyone should see not just for the African-American community. All people with a love of comedy will enjoy this film and want to see again. A new class for the twenty-first century and the new decade. See "Jumping the Broom" this spring. All the performances by Angela Bassett, Romeo, Paula Patton, Mike Epps, and the whole cast if you're familiar with them all will make you love their performances too.