Do what you want to now

I was just reading a article that hit home for me immediately. It was like someone took a look inside my soul for a while and knew exactly how I was feeling at that moment. When you have been through a lot of things personally and you haven't had a chance to really get it out. That does affect how you are going to feel inside. I am usually good...but lately no I haven't felt that way just yet. I guess because one when you go through something someone told me. You really have to go through it completely....physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. It's all connected they say the mind and body are truly connected yes....as well as what really goes on inside your heart too. So that does play a role. 
I saw this article with the beautiful actress, Gabrielle Union discussing some important messages you need to talk about when you're young and chasing your dream. It hit home cause on one hand....you cannot always listen to the people sometimes in your inner circle, you cannot always listen to the naysayers, forget them. Do what's in your heart, what plan you have in mind now....forget about what everyone else wants. Do what will make you truly happy. 

Part of me writing has been great cause I get a chance to do that....sometimes I feel like I am living a fake life....like on one hand I am living yes....but am I doing what I really want to do am I wearing or looking how I want to look? I didn't expect my life to be like this....I thought I would have had everything figured out by now....but now I am like...maybe too many influences have been on me. I need to do what's right for me too. 
I am going to get there....I know it I am going to take that advice Ms. Union said and just go for it then. Take a chance do what's going to make you happy and excited. It's funny I felt happier 6 months ago then I did now but maybe that's because a lot has changed. But now I realize do what is going to get you to the next step you want to be at now. I know I have to soon....time is ticking, I can't wait around anymore....these 26 years have been very good to me. So I am going to take some of my own advice, be patient, take relationships slower this time, invest time, if you really want something you will work for it, and if I really want to be happy, peace of mind, and the life I have dreamed about since I was a girl....then damn it I will work for it....cause this isn't it right now...going from job to job...no....I just wanted to chase my dream. 

Fall 2012 line up "Revenge", Nashville, and 666 Park Avenue the television show

We are blessed when we can find a great television show to watch to keep us entertained and inspired there are often several television series that have come into my life where I have found a need to always just get invested and commit my time to the show. You know the shows I am talking about the shows that have some how become apart of your life every Sunday night when you just cannot miss it even if the  NFL Superbowl,  Baseball world series, or the basketball season championship game is coming on. It's like no matter what you need to watch and see this show. I have had several of those in my life now I am glad to say that have become apart of my journey, influenced my life, my personality, and even my friendships and relationships too. "Sex and The City", "Desperate Housewives" and "The Hills". Now that these shows have ran their course, the stars of each show have become more successful, their characters have each touched our hearts and made us laugh. They say good-bye to us in beautiful long 1 or 2 hour episodes as if we say good-bye to our best friends. 

Then suddenly a genius television network like ABC, a genius producer, a gifted director, and talented television series writer, a gorgeous cast is in the making, and then all of the stars align and then you have three new television series that appear before you on the network. This season for fall 2012, is Revenge, the television series starring the beautiful Emily Van Camp, she played Rebecca on one of my other favorite shows, "Brothers & Sisters". She has returned now as a powerful, butt-kicking, tough, fearless, but with supermodel looks as "Emily Thorne/Amanda Clarke". I love the show there's something about her that reminds me a bit of another character who I adore in literature, Lisbeth Salander, from "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" series. Yet Emily Thorne and the cast of Revenge are set in the proper, beautiful, beachy, upper-class location of the Southhamptons in New York. Emily of course we know is planning to avenge her father, David Clarke's murder and go against the Graysons as well. I am so excited to see this show blossom, grow, and continue to be even more full of surprises. The cast is gorgeous, witty, talented, and the show is very dramatic. You can catch Revenge on your television series or online at http://www.abc.com and Sunday nights at 9p.m. EST and check your local listings. 

The next television series that has all ready taken us by storm is Nashville, is about a young singing starlet and a singer all ready in her prime trying to reclaim and take the throne of the music game. I all ready love the show it has a bit of parody to it. I guess for me I can see how they emulate and show how the music industry works. It all works the same even if the genre is different. I have to commend, Hayden Panettiere who has all ready showcased her singing and acting chops. Extremely talented. I am looking forward to this series every Wednesday  at 10p.m. now that makes you want to stay hooked. The cast is great and gorgeous and they have made me turn into a bit of a country fan now. So yee-haw and watch Nashville cause you get to learn about the city that really found some of most greatest talented country musicians. 

The last show is the supernatural, twists, and turns of "666 Park Avenue" which have showed former casts who have made their debut on ABC and this high society, expensive apartment which has showed off the cast in a haunted apartment that has some dark skeletons and secrets of its own. The cast is     Rachael Taylor, Dave Annable (Brothers and Sisters), Robert Buckley, Mercedes Masohn, Erik Palladino, Helena Matsson, Samantha Logan, and the beautiful, lovely, Vanessa Williams (Ugly Betty)
and Terry Quinn. The costumes are stylish and modern and I love the story line which gets better every week.  Catch 666 Park Avenue on WABC at 10p.m. and check your local listings. 

So now ABC has some serious hits on their hands and competition so now we have three other shows to add to our busy Sunday nights we should not miss. Grab your popcorn and a glass of your favorite drink cause your in for one hot spicy night this fall and winter with these series!

The cast of "Revenge" Make sure you tune in and watch Sunday nights on ABC.

Nicki Minaj strikes again with Pink Friday but the Fragrance

I love beauty and fragrances I even wanted to start my own fragrance called, Charisma so I support any young person who comes out with one. Just so happened one of my new favorite artists, Nicki Minaj debuted one...now she's competing against other artists and musicians I respect now. 
I am a Nicki Minaj fan she's intelligent, business-savvy, eccentric, fearless,   I as a new fan along with all of the other "Barbz" she affectionately calls her fans. Nicki has come back not only with the Roman Reloaded Album but now she is expanding her brand with her very own fragrance, Pink Friday. How will she compete against now with the other R&B songstresses, Pop musicians, and all of the young  business entrepreneurs who have taken the chance to expand their fashion lines with clothes, fragrances, shoes, and memorabilia. She has this fierce, go-getter personality of course that will help boost sales. 

She works hard and she has an opportunity to do something now that will change the face of Rap and Hip Hop music. There has never been a female rap artist who was in their twenties who came out with a female fragrance for her contemporaries. She has a great brand and image that can take her beyond just music. She can possibly have her own barbie doll, her own clothing line, and even a cartoon show just to expose her brand even further. 

Roman Reloaded 2012 Release 

Now what will Nicki do to make her even more well known. Who knows but for one thing we better stay tuned cause this native New Yorker, Trinidadian born triple threat may just surprise all of us now. 

Her image and music has crossover to people of all ages. ethnic backgrounds, and walks of life. She has become an international artist all in the matter of less than 5 years. 

She can easily relate to every single audience, females, males, low class to upper class, so now how does the Princess of Hip Hop carry on and expand her brand even further. 

Nicki Minaj fragrance promo 

Nicki Minaj Barbie Doll by Mattel

Pop Latin Musician Ricky Martin and Hip Hop Artist/Entrepreneur, Nicki Minaj endorse MAC Cosmetics Viva Glam

She even has her own lipstick color her signature color in pink by M*A*C Cosmetics. 

Release Fragrance Party September 2012 in New York at Macy's debut fragrance

Her fragrance designers capture the image and essence of Nicki's image and  style

Happy Birthday "Inside the World of Honey Brown Sugar" Blog

I started writing this blog exactly 4 years ago...it came at an excellent time I was at Hunter College in my Basic Reporting Media 292P class. My professor gave the class the opportunity to start a blog about any of our interests. I was hooked immediately.... So in honor of my blog's birthday month I made my first post October 21, 2008. I want to say thank you for allowing me to find my true creativity, freedom, and I am able to release my inner most thoughts, opinions, and express sometimes what I am truly feeling sometimes.

I am normally known to some people as a person who can talk....to others I may be shy or reserved but I am really an opinionated, curious, and open person. If you really knew me past up until the present. If you knew who I really was and what my life has been like from beginning until now. You will and would understand why I am exactly the way I am.


Why I have exposed myself in my writing to people...why I made this choice of loving media. If you know me personally then you probably know what I am talking about my experiences past and present. 
If you don't know me then you have to continue reading my stories, poems, entries, in order to get where I am coming from and my goal with this blog. My goal was to find a way to connect to others about things I love. I believe the mission has been accomplished. 

I am so excited to really share with you all as time passes....when I started this blog I was 21 years old. I was in college taking full time classes I was on my way getting ready to head out of college. When the opportunity came along for this. I knew I could do something more, It gave me a voice, I found my voice again, I found clarity about everything. I found who I really was too.

 I am almost 26 and I can tell you this blog really did open some major doors for me even job opportunities. I never would have imagined. I can tell you my journey ahead I will expose more. I mean as you watch me continue on my journey of young adulthood...you will learn about my life and everything that has come along with that. 

So "Inside the World of Honey Brown Sugar" Happy Birthday to Us! We made it through four beautiful years together. From 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, and 2012....I am sure there will be so much more to share in our lessons of life, happiness, joy, love, the news, fashion, gossip, music, and all of the things that come along with that territory.

Missing My Mr. New York

Tall just like the high skyscrapers, busy just like the fast pacing taxis
Fun and exciting full of life, culture, and popularity.
Missing more than New York...I am missing my friend too.
So smart, intelligent, fun, and so lovable.

I miss you because you opened me up and you opened yourself up to me...it's hard cause you really were my baby. You are a lot like New York to me because you represent the diversity. You don't close yourself off you expose yourself to all different types of culture and people.

Your smile can light up my day instantly, and I always miss how you would look at me every day. It was instant attraction....even when you looked at me you could make me feel like sometimes no one else mattered...sometimes you would get distracted too...maybe looking at the latest new thing. Just like in New York the latest new popular thing coming along. 


I miss you though I should be angry at you. I should be moving on and moving forward though. I cannot though cause I miss you too much. It hurts a lot because you actually broke my heart even though you tried so hard to avoid it...you didn't want to be that jerk. Well why didn't you really give me a chance to really explain myself. 

You made me so nervous that last time we talked, really talked, I stammered (yes I stutter sometimes when I get nervous). Only because I really needed you to know the truth about what happened. I feel like I messed up that day. 

Even when I was around you...you made me nervous....my whole body was nervous to the point you made me bite my lip. Only time I was not nervous around you is probably when I sat next to you and I just felt the connection. You made me smile....it's been 4 months and I haven't seen you. I still miss you though 7 months since I last kissed your face. 9 months since we made love...and I can still see you imprinted in my brain, soul, heart. Your voice, your smile, the way you would hold or grab my hand. Your silliness, your confidence,your intelligence, and even how honest you were too. Sometimes it would make me wonder how do I get lucky enough to deal and handle that too.

If I could say it...to you and if I saw you one more time. I would say this..."I thank god for allowing me the chance to meet you...he gave me a chance to meet someone who means so much to me. He taught me a valuable lesson and he allowed me to realize powerful lessons about life and love. Yes baby I love you....I have never said those words to anyone except my family. It may have seem like infatuation but believe me I know in my heart its love cause I realize I can be myself with you.  I didn't have to worry about anything...you accepted flaws I know you saw them, you accepted everything, and you still wanted me. 

I would say "I miss you" and keep going on with your life but I know deep down you and I should have stayed together. I am sorry...if I ever let you down is what I would say. Sorry for the disappointment. I am being sincere when I say I used that day as an escape to have some fun. Even though I was not attracted to anyone who was at that event. I was simply there alone not even my girlfriends could attend. I miss you deep down in my soul miss you. 

It's funny I can tolerate so much about you that I never thought I could in an individual. I have come to love it....just as much as I love NY. That's a whole lot of love.